what i love most about my weekend is when i don't have to rush to do anything, and i usually spend my whole morning laying on my bed, thinking about things while listening to some music, before i finally get up because my tummy asks to be filled. just like this morning. i felt like my bed became a hundred times more comfy, and the weather was just perfect, so i just laid back and let a lot of things passed my brain all at once.
oh well, before i start writing anything more, i better warn you that this post is going to be another useless rants, so you better stop here if you don't want to read it but if you insist... well, i'm pretty sure that you have a lot of better things to do, so you better think again, hehe. i treat my blog as my dumpster of feelings, so here i am asking for your understanding ^^
ehm, soooooo
i am currently 24 and if you happen to look back to my old blog posts, i targeted myself to get married when i am 25 years old, a.k.a next year. yes, and my next birthday is not even 12 months from now. a zillion wedding invitations that i keep on receiving this year just make it worse, to be honest :P
well, those wise people say that 'no pain, no gain'. in other words, i have to widen my social circle, try to mingle here and there to get new friends and then, who knows, find my Mr. Right. the problem is..... ehm, it's pretty embarassing to say this, but my last heartbreak was a bit traumatic for me. i am now too afraid to make friends with guys, because i am scared that i'll fall for them and i am definitely not ready for another heartbreak just yet. i am afraid to make friends with girls too because the one who hurt me last time (by having the honor to be the girlfriend of the one who broke my heart, of course) was someone who was just around me, and somehow i am also not ready for another betrayal. at the end, i prefer to be in comfort of my four walls, and without realizing it, i become an introvert (or maybe even more introverted than i used to be :P).
one of my housemates said to me that i haven't been in any gathering held by indonesian student association here for soooo long that some new people there asked her whether i am a loner (cnblue's oetoriya at the background, keke. okay, back to the topic). i knooowww this is one of my new year resolutions, to make new friends and widen my social circle, but trust me, i am such an awkward turtle that i am not sure if people want to be around me. i just.... don't know how to deal with people. i am totally not a people person. i can work in a team, i know how to do my work with people, but just don't ask me to start a new conversation with a stranger, or even to ask people that i haven't met for long time about what they're up to. i am soooo not into icebreaking, i tell ya.
so i guess i have to change my resolution into 'trying not to be an awkward turtle', because making new friends is hard if i haven't gotten rid of my awkwardness, rite?
as usual, i don't even know what i write (_ _")
what do you know about introverts?
well, the title is the question that i want to ask you before proceeding further to the post.
if what you know about introverts is this...
sorry, you're completely wrong.
don't worry, i was like you too, before i found out that i am actually an introvert.
it all started when i unintentionally did this personality quiz at mypersonality.info, and i was diagnosed as an INTJ (Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Judging).
i was not that surprised with the last three traits because i knew that i've been like that for my whole life, but knowing that i am an introvert was new. what surprised me more was when the result told me that i was 89% more an introvert than an extravert. in case you don't know, i am a very chatty person. i also think that i am quite confident everytime i am asked to present in front of the class (eventhough i have to undergo some minor palpitation first before presenting, kekekeke). that's why i was confused why i was diagnosed as an introvert.
after that, i dug some informations about introverts in the web, and what i got (again) surprised me because introverts are actually like this
and based on those informations that i get, introverts are not that much different from extraverts
the difference is just extraverts feel recharged when they meet and socialize. the more people they interact with, the more energized they feel. on the other hand, introverts feel recharged when they are alone and do their own things. the more people they interact with, the more drained their energy is. however, it doesn't mean that introverts are antisocial. they still come to parties or other social events, but then when they feel it's tiring enough for them to socialize, they will go back home. that's it.
so, after reading this 'newfound' definition of introversion and extraversion, now i can accept that i am an introvert. i socialize when i want to, and i don't push myself to be in the social circle that i am not comfortable with. i also don't push myself to join the 'in' events forthesake of making myself look sociable, because it will be more uncomfortable for me and even people around me to know that i don't enjoy the event. besides, i don't enjoy being in a big crowd, because i will slowly become anxious since i am not really a people person.
however, i know how to have fun. i go to malls, window-shopping, gathering in restaurants or cafes, or even karaoke box with my closest friends. the thing is, i can't deny that i am such a homey person. my way of recharging myself is staying at home, watching or doing this or that in my laptop, reading novels, or making something without leaving my comfortable cocoon of a home. that is my favorite weekend 'getaway', and trust me, i always feel more energized and refreshed when monday comes.
buuuuuut it doesn't mean that i do not enjoy travelling or hanging out, nope, not at all. i enjoy those things, but since these things are those that drain my energy, i become selective of it and i don't do these things much, but, of course, i still want to do them sometimes :)
sooooo
after understanding what introverts are all about, here are tips on how to deal with them (just in case you have one or more introvert friends :D)
well, this is the end of this post, and i hope you see introverts in a new light and know how to communicate or be friends with them now without being, well you know, awkward or something :D
ciao!
if what you know about introverts is this...
sorry, you're completely wrong.
don't worry, i was like you too, before i found out that i am actually an introvert.
it all started when i unintentionally did this personality quiz at mypersonality.info, and i was diagnosed as an INTJ (Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Judging).
i was not that surprised with the last three traits because i knew that i've been like that for my whole life, but knowing that i am an introvert was new. what surprised me more was when the result told me that i was 89% more an introvert than an extravert. in case you don't know, i am a very chatty person. i also think that i am quite confident everytime i am asked to present in front of the class (eventhough i have to undergo some minor palpitation first before presenting, kekekeke). that's why i was confused why i was diagnosed as an introvert.
after that, i dug some informations about introverts in the web, and what i got (again) surprised me because introverts are actually like this
and based on those informations that i get, introverts are not that much different from extraverts
the difference is just extraverts feel recharged when they meet and socialize. the more people they interact with, the more energized they feel. on the other hand, introverts feel recharged when they are alone and do their own things. the more people they interact with, the more drained their energy is. however, it doesn't mean that introverts are antisocial. they still come to parties or other social events, but then when they feel it's tiring enough for them to socialize, they will go back home. that's it.
so, after reading this 'newfound' definition of introversion and extraversion, now i can accept that i am an introvert. i socialize when i want to, and i don't push myself to be in the social circle that i am not comfortable with. i also don't push myself to join the 'in' events forthesake of making myself look sociable, because it will be more uncomfortable for me and even people around me to know that i don't enjoy the event. besides, i don't enjoy being in a big crowd, because i will slowly become anxious since i am not really a people person.
however, i know how to have fun. i go to malls, window-shopping, gathering in restaurants or cafes, or even karaoke box with my closest friends. the thing is, i can't deny that i am such a homey person. my way of recharging myself is staying at home, watching or doing this or that in my laptop, reading novels, or making something without leaving my comfortable cocoon of a home. that is my favorite weekend 'getaway', and trust me, i always feel more energized and refreshed when monday comes.
buuuuuut it doesn't mean that i do not enjoy travelling or hanging out, nope, not at all. i enjoy those things, but since these things are those that drain my energy, i become selective of it and i don't do these things much, but, of course, i still want to do them sometimes :)
sooooo
after understanding what introverts are all about, here are tips on how to deal with them (just in case you have one or more introvert friends :D)
well, this is the end of this post, and i hope you see introverts in a new light and know how to communicate or be friends with them now without being, well you know, awkward or something :D
ciao!
it's just.... hard
it's hard, you know.
i always try to please everyone. i always try to make everyone likes me, for my whole life.
but at the end, they will always forget me, they forget that i exist, they will always leave me for someone who's more fun to be with, smarter, livelier, more adorable, more lovely
they will always leave me at the end.
people tend to remember my mistakes. they will only find me when they need help, or when i make any mistake that i have to fix.
they will never find me when they want to have fun. i don't actually mind that much for that since i know that i'm a boring person and i'm such a party pooper.
i just want them to find me when they need someone to trust, when they need a shoulder to lean on.
but they won't.
at the end, i am always the lonely one.
and since i don't want to be a burden to anyone
might as well get used to this loneliness from now on, right?
life with westlife
i was doing a little cleanup to my harddisk when i suddenly came across one notepad file titled 'westlife post', and i found out that it was this post that i wrote two years ago (somewhere around october 2011) when i heard that my favorite band was splitting up. i seriously wonder why i didn't post it and it ended up stranded in my harddisk for two friggin years *facepalm*
since i think it would be such a waste to ignore this post, i guess it's okay for me to post it now right? teehee~ *grin*
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at first, it was just quite a frustrating afternoon for me since my lecturer just announced that my class was going to have a re-test for our physics first test, and for me it's frustrating since i hate physics with all my heart.
then all of sudden, my sister bbm-ed me a link from bbc news. i couldn't open that link from my bb since i wasn't connected to the wifi, so i asked her what that link was all about.
she gave me the first sentence of the article and i could feel that my eyes became twice bigger, seeing the screen of my cellphone in disbelief.
"WESTLIFE ARE TO SPLIT 'AMICABLY' AFTER 14 YEARS, THE BAND HAVE ANNOUNCED."
yes, i was shocked. really shocked, to be honest.
i quickly opened their official website once i arrived home, and the first thing that caught my eye was this announcement:
and i couldn't blame myself when tears started rolling down my cheeks.
for your information, i have been a huge westlife fan for the past 13 years. i remembered when i started listening to english boybands, and the first boyband that i was listening to was boyzone, since my mom bought me the cassette (CDs were too expensive okay) and said to me that the songs were good. i was still on my 5th grade at that time, and i introduced boyzone to my cliques.
then one of my friends said that i should have a try on westlife, and she lent me her westlife album, it was titled 'westlife'. yes, their first album. i brought that home and listened to it. boyzone might be the first boyband that i knew, but westlife was the one that captured my heart instantly. the first track of that album was 'swear it again', which was their first single as well, and i bought a copy of that album not so long after that because i was fascinated by that song.
a lot of favorite songs followed 'swear it again', such as 'fool again', 'flying without wings', 'we are one', 'moments', and my all-time favorite, 'if i let you go'. the second album also gave me a lot of good stuff to listen to, like 'my love', 'i lay my love on you', 'soledad', 'somebody needs you', and so on. they continued with their third, fourth, fifth, and so on, and so on. i started to love westlife when i was still in primary school, and internet was not a hit at that time, so i knew all about them from the magazines that i bought. there were even unofficial biography and similar stuff like those which i bought just because i wanted to know more about this band. i also started to save my pennies for their official VCD (well, since DVD was not as famous as today during that time) 'westlife story' and 'coast to coast tour'. the price was quite expensive for a primary school student like me at that time, but i didnt hesitate to cut out some of my pocket money to buy those VCDs since i am a fan of this band.
the member i loved the most from this band was kian. kian john francis egan. i loved him so much back then that i decided to copy his signature and made it my own signature with some modifications (and yes, i still use this signature until now :P). i started to fall in love with his wide, pure, friendly smile, and that ended with his face all over my bedroom in the form of posters on my walls, stickers on my cupboard, and photos on my desk.
westlife gave me a lot of memories. i started to make friends with my primary school besties (and we are still in contact until now) because all of us love westlife. we even decided to watch their concert together and started to save our money for it, but we had to cancel the plan since the concert was held at the same time with our final examination.
westlife were with me in most parts of my life, since they can always give me songs that are suitable with the moments. for example, my all-time favorite 'if i let you go' is always on my playlist everytime i'm in love with someone, but i cannot confess to him because i'm afraid of the rejection he will give me (which is most of the time, explaining why it became my all time favorite). 'i lay my love on you', 'my love', 'i promise you that', 'evergreen', and many other songs were there for me everytime i am falling in love. when i am brokenhearted, 'obvious', 'i cry', 'soledad', and many more were there in my 'broken' playlist. westlife have been with me for the past 13 years. i know k-pop has been taking over me lately and i didn't catch up with westlife nowadays. i didn't even have their latest album. i just simply downloaded the songs that i like, and i'm not really catching up with them. however, their songs are always there in my playlist, and i don't forget them completely.
basically, it's hard for me to know that the band which has been there in 13 years of my life is going to split. it was already hard for me when i saw bryan walking out of the band, and now i have to see all of them walking out of the band. there will be no more westlife. it was enough to bring me to tears, especially after reading their statement thanking to fans who have been there during their journey. i may not be their most loyal fans, but i feel the same sadness with their loyal fans when they said that they were about to split up.
however, i'm trying to understand and accept their decision. 14 years is not a short period of time. they spent their adult life together, they even grew up together. they have made amazing achievements during their career, and i guess it's time for them to take a break. they need to spend more time with their family, one thing that they couldn't do much during the past 14 years. they are already in their thirties, and their priorities have changed. they've experienced enough time in music industry, and it's time for them to grow outside of westlife, individually, in their own ways. i know i'm sad, but i have to respect their decision and keep supporting them. that's what a true fan does, right? :)
thank you for being there for me, westlife. when you all were growing up, i was growing up with you too. i'm now out of words, but basically i want to say big thanks. thanks a lot.
:')
ps. my all-time favorite. enjoy :)
since i think it would be such a waste to ignore this post, i guess it's okay for me to post it now right? teehee~ *grin*
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at first, it was just quite a frustrating afternoon for me since my lecturer just announced that my class was going to have a re-test for our physics first test, and for me it's frustrating since i hate physics with all my heart.
then all of sudden, my sister bbm-ed me a link from bbc news. i couldn't open that link from my bb since i wasn't connected to the wifi, so i asked her what that link was all about.
she gave me the first sentence of the article and i could feel that my eyes became twice bigger, seeing the screen of my cellphone in disbelief.
"WESTLIFE ARE TO SPLIT 'AMICABLY' AFTER 14 YEARS, THE BAND HAVE ANNOUNCED."
yes, i was shocked. really shocked, to be honest.
i quickly opened their official website once i arrived home, and the first thing that caught my eye was this announcement:
"After 14 years, 26 top ten hits including 14 number one singles,11 top 5 albums, 7 of which hit the top spot and have collectively sold over 44 million copies around the world, 10 sell out tours and countless memories that we will forever cherish, we today announce our plan to go our separate ways after a greatest hits collection this Christmas and a farewell tour next year.The decision is entirely amicable and after spending all of our adult life together so far, we want to have a well-earned break and look at new ventures. We see the greatest hits collection and the farewell tour as the perfect way to celebrate our incredible career along with our fans. We are really looking forward to getting out on the tour and seeing our fans one last time.Over the years Westlife has become so much more to us than just a band. Westlife are a family. We would like to thank our fans who have been with us on this amazing journey and are part of our family too.We never imagined when we started out in 1998 that 14 years later we would still be recording, touring and having hits together. It has been a dream come true for all of us.Kian, Mark, Nicky and Shane"
and i couldn't blame myself when tears started rolling down my cheeks.
for your information, i have been a huge westlife fan for the past 13 years. i remembered when i started listening to english boybands, and the first boyband that i was listening to was boyzone, since my mom bought me the cassette (CDs were too expensive okay) and said to me that the songs were good. i was still on my 5th grade at that time, and i introduced boyzone to my cliques.
then one of my friends said that i should have a try on westlife, and she lent me her westlife album, it was titled 'westlife'. yes, their first album. i brought that home and listened to it. boyzone might be the first boyband that i knew, but westlife was the one that captured my heart instantly. the first track of that album was 'swear it again', which was their first single as well, and i bought a copy of that album not so long after that because i was fascinated by that song.
a lot of favorite songs followed 'swear it again', such as 'fool again', 'flying without wings', 'we are one', 'moments', and my all-time favorite, 'if i let you go'. the second album also gave me a lot of good stuff to listen to, like 'my love', 'i lay my love on you', 'soledad', 'somebody needs you', and so on. they continued with their third, fourth, fifth, and so on, and so on. i started to love westlife when i was still in primary school, and internet was not a hit at that time, so i knew all about them from the magazines that i bought. there were even unofficial biography and similar stuff like those which i bought just because i wanted to know more about this band. i also started to save my pennies for their official VCD (well, since DVD was not as famous as today during that time) 'westlife story' and 'coast to coast tour'. the price was quite expensive for a primary school student like me at that time, but i didnt hesitate to cut out some of my pocket money to buy those VCDs since i am a fan of this band.
the member i loved the most from this band was kian. kian john francis egan. i loved him so much back then that i decided to copy his signature and made it my own signature with some modifications (and yes, i still use this signature until now :P). i started to fall in love with his wide, pure, friendly smile, and that ended with his face all over my bedroom in the form of posters on my walls, stickers on my cupboard, and photos on my desk.
westlife gave me a lot of memories. i started to make friends with my primary school besties (and we are still in contact until now) because all of us love westlife. we even decided to watch their concert together and started to save our money for it, but we had to cancel the plan since the concert was held at the same time with our final examination.
westlife were with me in most parts of my life, since they can always give me songs that are suitable with the moments. for example, my all-time favorite 'if i let you go' is always on my playlist everytime i'm in love with someone, but i cannot confess to him because i'm afraid of the rejection he will give me (which is most of the time, explaining why it became my all time favorite). 'i lay my love on you', 'my love', 'i promise you that', 'evergreen', and many other songs were there for me everytime i am falling in love. when i am brokenhearted, 'obvious', 'i cry', 'soledad', and many more were there in my 'broken' playlist. westlife have been with me for the past 13 years. i know k-pop has been taking over me lately and i didn't catch up with westlife nowadays. i didn't even have their latest album. i just simply downloaded the songs that i like, and i'm not really catching up with them. however, their songs are always there in my playlist, and i don't forget them completely.
basically, it's hard for me to know that the band which has been there in 13 years of my life is going to split. it was already hard for me when i saw bryan walking out of the band, and now i have to see all of them walking out of the band. there will be no more westlife. it was enough to bring me to tears, especially after reading their statement thanking to fans who have been there during their journey. i may not be their most loyal fans, but i feel the same sadness with their loyal fans when they said that they were about to split up.
however, i'm trying to understand and accept their decision. 14 years is not a short period of time. they spent their adult life together, they even grew up together. they have made amazing achievements during their career, and i guess it's time for them to take a break. they need to spend more time with their family, one thing that they couldn't do much during the past 14 years. they are already in their thirties, and their priorities have changed. they've experienced enough time in music industry, and it's time for them to grow outside of westlife, individually, in their own ways. i know i'm sad, but i have to respect their decision and keep supporting them. that's what a true fan does, right? :)
thank you for being there for me, westlife. when you all were growing up, i was growing up with you too. i'm now out of words, but basically i want to say big thanks. thanks a lot.
:')
ps. my all-time favorite. enjoy :)
Seeing Siwon
First of all, OMG I still can't believe that I just saw CHOI SIWON just RIGHT in front of my eyes, he wasn't even more than 100 metre from where I stood, and I could see him for FREE (well, except the RM 5 that I had to spent in total for the transportation fare, but it doesn't matter at all since it's for Choi Siwon okay, and...alright, I guess I start to get out of context so I better stop :D)
Well, I think it's better to know the full story from the very beginning, ne?
It all started from this tweet in his account @siwon407
And I was like
Because, come on, he's in Malaysia and I didn't even know a thing about that?? I didn't even know what event he's about to attend whatsoever!
So I decided to check on some SJ fanbases in Malaysia to get some info, but it seemed like they didn't know a thing about that either. I wasn't prepared about this at all. I was on my way to campus when I read his first tweet, and I had to settle some things in the morning, so when the second tweet came
I directly checked on one of Siwon's Malaysian fanbases, @mymrsiwon, and found out that he stayed (or is staying? Since rumour has it that he's going to be here until March 27th) at Ritz-Carlton Hotel, which is located like only across of KL Sentral. I was like, oh maaaannn, if I didn't have to settle my things, I would directly go there and join all the ELFs to wait for him!!
During lunch, I told Zhafarina that Siwon came to Malaysia and at that time, the third tweet came
I asked Zhafarina whether she knows this place, and apparently she does! She said that the park is just minutes from her house, and she offered that we could go see him together! Of course I didn't waste her offer and agreed to it right away since I didn't have anything to do in the lab after lunch. She is a fan of Siwon too anyway, although she's not an ELF (don't get confused. It is definitely possible for her XD).
From @mymrsiwon, we also found out that Siwon was here for LINE CF shoot. Although Siwon stated that he would arrive around 5 pm, Zhaf said that the parking lot at the park is so small and she's afraid that we wouldn't get any parking spot if we arrived late. Besides, after 4pm, there would most definitely be traffic jam around KL because it's the time when people go back from office. Furthermore, KL is also pretty far from my campus since UPM is situated in Serdang. So, at the end, what time did we decide to leave UPM?
2.30 pm. Yes, you read it right, which is like 2 and a half hours away from the appointed time. Yes, we're just that enthusiastic (or being too cautious, I have no idea either XD).
We departed from UPM around 2.40 pm, and surprisingly our dearest supervisor (Dr. K) gave her full support to us (although we had to go through some teasings from her first :P). We arrived there around 3.00 pm (because Zhaf was too excited and she drove like a mad woman, I tell ya :P), and we were the first fans to arrive! Kekekeke~
So we entered the park and we were like thinking, "Oh man... Which part of this enormous park will he be?" because this park had three different entrances, and the entrances were like from one end to another. We were afraid that we wouldn't get even a glimpse of him if we were at the wrong entrance. And you know what we did? We decided to check all entrances and tried to figure out which entrance that would be the most possible one for him to get into the park ("I guess he would enter from the middle entrance. It's the main entrance after all, and the parking lot is bigger." "But if I had to be the one responsible to bring Siwon, I would be as undercover as possible, and I would choose this entrance since it's the most hidden and nobody would guess that he enters from here." "But the parking lot is too small. I'm pretty sure he'll come with his entourage and all the props, the parking lot here won't occupy them all." "Or is it possible that he will enter from the entrance where we park the car? It's pretty hidden, and the parking lot is quite spacious after all."). And while we were debating about all the possibilities.... We suddenly saw one white van with a motorcycled police accompanying it. Of course we were like... Omona, is that him?? But it's still around 4 pm, it can't be him!
We decided to get closer anyway, and so the rest of ELFs who were waiting at the park. Gosh, when I saw the rest of ELFs, I suddenly felt old since they all look like they're still teenagers, or the oldest they can be is around 21-22 years old. They brought their banners, mostly asking for SS5 to be held in Malaysia. They also brought their killer DSLR with their gigantuous lenses, while we only had our cellphones, with half-filled battery somemore, with us. They were definitely more prepared than us, clearly :P
this was just A QUARTER of the crowd. Impressive, right?
Then trucks bringing the props started coming, and I even saw this truck which was meant to be changing room+toilet. This was the first time for me to see such thing!
see the one with ladder? that's the toilet+changing room truck!
The staffs also started to set up the props.
We also got a few 'false alarms' since the crowd started cheering everytime there was any car coming and parked near those trucks. There was even one sport car parked around there and the crowd already went crazy because they all thought that it's Siwon, but it wasn't after all :P Zhafarina and I were not part of the crowd since we preferred to secure our spot near the shooting area. He's going to have his shoot there anyway, so it's better to see him up close during shooting rather than only having a glimpse of him when he gets out the car, right? :D
Around 5.10-5.15 pm (I didn't really remember the exact time), a van arrived together with two motorcycled police, and we're really sure that Siwon must be inside that van. Prince Manager came out first and checked the area, while Siwon stayed in the van for quite some time.
Prince Manager was the one in white. The lighting and my camera both sucked big time, please understand >,<
I guess Siwon did his makeup first in the van. You guys really have to know that Prince Manager is reaaaally handsome up close! He really deserves to be an idol himself, IMHO. Unfortunately he moved too fast and I couldn't catch even a clear pic of him with my stupid cellphone camera >.<
After failing to get a decent pic of Prince Manager, I really wanted to get at least a pic of Siwon so that at least I have a proof. So you know what I did? I asked Zhafarina if she wanted to join me to look at the van together with other ELFs, but she said she better stayed to secure our spot, so I left her for a while and to get better view I decided to...climb a slide.
Yes, a FRIGGIN SLIDE. See, the things that I did to get your pic, Siwon! Wkwkwk~
Aaaaaaand there he comes!
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| my handsome namja in blue! Gyaaaaa~ |
Sorry for the REALLY crappy quality of the pic. It was zoomed somemore :P
Yes, you can see that the security was tight.
You know what, I already warned Zhafarina at first if I suddenly cried or even fainted because omg this is my bias okay. However, when Siwon was walking through the crowd in front of my eyes, the only thing I could do was chanting "omigod omigod omigod omigod" over and over without even realizing it. I was like totally speechless. I couldn't even scream "Siwon oppa! Siwon-shii!" like what others did since I literally made an :O face. Trust me, Siwon in real life is much much much much MUCH more handsome than even the most handsome picture or ad of him you've ever seen, like seriously. His skin is soooo fairly white (if he's this white in real life, I can't imagine how pale Kyuhyun or Eunhyuk is in real life, to be honest. Or was it just the afternoon sun tricking me? I have no idea) and totally flawless! He's also really tall (well, he's 182-183 cm after all) and his body is soooo nicely built. The good thing about him is he kept on smiling and I didn't even see a single frown coming from him even until the shoot had ended.
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| touch up, touch up.... |
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| sorry oppa, Malaysia must be scorching hot for you.... |
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| stupid tree, you block uri oppa's face! |
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| FINALLY a (quite) decent picture of Siwon-oppa! |
He's also very friendly and kept waving to us everytime he had a short break. Since it's Siwon, and it's not like every day we can see him, I guess it's very normal for any of us to shout his name at all times. The director (who was a girl) was a bit mad at first since we didn't want to shut up eventhough she already warned us. The funny thing was after Siwon borrowed the director's mic and said "no screaming please" while smiling, we couldn't help seeing his smile and screamed even louder XD.
The scenes itself were really short. He just had to walk several steps and acted like he had a small talk with the model in the first scene, but it needed to be repeated a lot of times. Some of the girls in the crowd said that the model was from Singapore, but I'm not sure either. The model is reaaaaally pretty, and the first thing that I noticed from her was that she got really nice hair, kekeke.
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| Siwon-oppa with the model |
The second scene itself also had to be repeated a lot of times (and I kept on thinking oh guuuurl how lucky you are to be able to hug him like a zillion times!), and thunder already started to roar towards the end of the shoot. Siwon made this funny gesture without saying a word to ask us to pray so that it didn't rain, so cute! However, it was finally raining at the end, but thankfully the shoot was over already. After taking some pictures using his iPhone (including this and this pic that he uploaded in his twitter. Seriously, the crowd directly went wild when he gestured to us to take the pic together. Poor security guards XD), he ran back to his van through the crowd, all of sudden. When he was running, all of us spontaneously shouted "SS5! SS5! SS5!" altogether. It was daebak to be honest :D
.... And that was the end of our 'Seeing Siwon' adventure ^^
We went out from the park around 7.00 pm with smiles on our faces. Though he didn't get a chance to say anything to us ELFs, we are really satisfied. Until now, I still can't believe that I just met my bias in SJ and saw him live in front of my eyes. Seriously, I still feel like it was just a dream. This was a really nice experience, and definitely I'll sleep with smile on my face too tonight :)
Soooo that's all from me folks. So sorry for the very low quality of the pics and also if the way I tell the story is kinda boring ^^
Ciao!
ps: Stupid blogger doesn't let me rotate my pics! Grrrrr~ sorry for all the inconveniences! >.<
pss: We were featured in 8tv Nite Live's Facebook! Gyaaaa~ (although half of our faces were not pictured, kekeke. I was the one in SAPPHIRE BLUE tshirt, Zhaf was the one in plaid shirt)
beware of the Big Bad Wolf!
hello all! :)
soooo how was your february? mine was as boring as usual and naaaah you don't want to know about that, so i'll just skip to the topic that i want to let all of you know today:
BOOKS!!
reading is one of my not-so-guilty pleasures, and it is such a shame to realize that i haven't read any books (outside of research or class purposes :P) since two years ago (blame on my FYP... ouch). so when i heard from syamil last time that Big Bad Wolf Book Sale is coming.... of course i wouldn't miss my chance this time around!
i'm sure that those who live in malaysia and love reading know about this beasty book sale. why i call this beasty is because they totally cut off the prices of their books like crazy.... can you imagine getting imported novels (and it's not only for those unpopular ones - i even saw mitch albom's too!) for only rm 8 each??
yup... i never imagined that before meeting this wolf too :P so it's definitely not a surprise when you see a sea of people in front of your eyes like this, rite?
to be honest, i was mesmerized with the sea of books in front of me. since i am a novel lover, after getting one empty box to bring my hauls, i directly turned my heels to fiction section, which basically filled about one third of the big big hall
i screened every title and cover of the books before reading the synopsis and deciding whether to buy the book or not. i am basically a fan of chicklits, but i definitely won't mind a little sci-fi. i am pretty proud of myself knowing that i was diligent and patient enough to stroll each of those tables and screen the titles one by one for around three hours (and i am totally not kidding you when i say that i started to feel numb on my feet at the end of our book hunting session that night :P). without realizing it, i already filled my empty box with eleven novels in total :P
and here are the titles of the books that i bought that day
four of them are my sister's. she actually asked for percy jackson series (she is a fan of harry potter, hunger games, percy jackson, and their kinds), but i couldn't find the complete series, so she asked me to buy any novels which were in that category. at the end, i bought alfred kropp, heroes of the valley, the dragonfly pool, and the secret to lying (these books still fall into that category rite?? RITE??).
anyway, i basically spent rm 80 in total for 11 novels... wasn't that a steal??? and i was very satisfied bringing these books home!
aaaand i was completely surprised knowing that there would be big bad wolf aftermath sale from february 28 to march 4! i was even more surprised knowing that the already-low-price of imported novels was cut even further to rm 5! however, i wasn't about to go at first since i haven't even finished my hauls last time, but since safura offered rm 20 from her book voucher to me, i was beyond happy to receive her offer since rm 20 could afford me 4 new books! :)
safura, syamil, and i went there on the very first day, and we were a bit disappointed knowing that they only occupied half of the very same hall from the last time. however, the crowd was still there
to be honest, i didn't experience the same enthusiasm with the one that i had during the last BBW. i only strolled around half of the fiction section and i gave up already. soooo here are four books that i managed to get last thursday (the one titled seekers is my sister's):
i guess the meaning of 'aftermath' in BBW this time really means the aftermath of the last BBW, meaning that they only sold those novels that people were not interested to buy, since the titles and authors of the novels in fiction section seemed foreign to me. however, BBW Aftermath Sale is definitely a good chance for those who have BB1M (Baucer Buku 1 Malaysia) and want to get free books to read :)
sooooo that's all from me. adios amigos! :)
being readable
ehm, first of all, happy new year everybody! *well, i knowwww this is like two months late but since this is my first post in 2013, no harm done rite? :P*
sooooooo
ehm
back to the point
last night, i had a talk with my roommate before we drifted to sleep. i didn't know what was the topic before that, but then my roommate (who had known me for 5 years) told me that i'm like... the most readable person in the world.
what readable means here is people can see what i feel or what i think clearly on my face (does that mean i'm an expressive person too...? well, idk). you are definitely able to easily know whether i am sad, frustrated, panic, happy. people also can see if i don't like a person or if i do, if i fake a laugh, or if i feel uncomfortable.
when i took my bath this morning (don't furrow your brows yet. i am person who definitely agrees with the idea that bathroom is the most perfect place to make life decisions. and i tend to overanalyze and overthink somemore, so this often happens :P), i thought of the pros and cons being a readable person.
For the cons, of course, being a readable person will make other people know if i don't feel comfortable with them or something like that, and it will make them feel uncomfortable too. this is what i don't like the most about being (too) readable. sometimes it's just a small thing like laughing over a not-so-funny joke, and the person who gave the joke knew that i just faked a laugh to make that person happy. trust me, it put you in a sooooo awkward situation. that was just one small example. the most difficult thing that i (still) have to overcome is to know how to cover my expression so that it won't show if i don't like a specific person. my other friend once said that i can change my expression in a blink of an eye once anyone that i don't like comes into view, no matter how much i try to keep smiling whatsoever. and the funny thing is, it will also happen if the person i like (you know, that kind of like, like like) is within my sight. i will even try harder to put my cool facade eventhough i feel all jumpy inside. again, no matter how hard i try, you will always see from (at least) my eyes that i feel differently for that particular person.
since i haven't found the perfect solution to this problem, i tend to avoid those people who have the 'potential' to make me give such expressions. this is the major reason why i tend to avoid some people in my life because, trust me, i sincerely do not want things to get ugly, and the safest thing to do is to keep some distance from them. so, if you feel like i'm avoiding you, it's either because i like you, or i hate you. good luck figuring out which one :P
however, what i like about this trait is i'm not fake. since i cannot lie through my expressions, i tend to tell the truth too, because it's definitely no use to lie if they can see it from my face anyway. that's why some people also think of me as a blunt person. it sometimes gets worse if i can't find the right words and those people even think of me as a harsh human being. believe me, i don't even mean to do that. it's never my intention to be harsh. it's just a matter of me not being able to find the right gesture or right words to say. people who are close to me already know about this and that's why i'm glad that they're still with me through thick and thin.
there are some questions bugging my head when i thought about this thing this morning. is being readable such natural characteristic that you cannot simply change, or is it just an attitude that you can change someday? if it is natural, then i can't help but stick to being readable forever. but if i can, somehow, 'learn' how to mask what i feel or what i think, i would like to do so, because i don't want to make people feel uncomfortable with me. i don't want to avoid more people in my life either.
to those who manage to read this far, i salute you because you can keep up with my useless and nonsense rant, kekeke. thanks for reading anyway, i'll appreciate it more if you can give me some solutions too ^^
soooooo till next time! ciao :)
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