best of the best.... of 2009 :D

started from this post last year, i decided to make a post about 'best of the best of the year' for me every december. however, there are some new categories this year, but i don't put back some categories from last year here. well, enjoy! :)

best tv series

yes, the winner for tv series of the year is the big bang theory, a story about the life of four genius nerds (Sheldon, Leonard, Raj, and Howard) and their friendship with a normal beautiful chick named Penny. the first reason why i picked this series is: because i am one of them. yes, i am a geek. a nerd. whatever you call it. well, of course my IQ is not as high as sheldon's or leonard's (their IQ score when combined is 360! what the heck!), but their life is pretty much like mine, hehehe. the second reason is because the story can be frikkin funny without humiliating geeks. before i watched the big bang theory, what i always saw in movies or series was that nerds were described as people bringing thick books anywhere they go, speaking and acting awkwardly, wearing suppathick glasses and neat plead shirt. nerds are described very differently in this series. they wear colorful tshirts, jeans, they even go grocery shopping! people know they are geniuses from the way they talk, their attitude, and how they interact with 'normal' people. eventhough all of them are nerds, they are still human and of course they have different personalities. Leonard is the 'almost-normal' one. Raj cannot talk to women, while Howard is the 'playboy' in the gang. Sheldon, my favorite, has his own unique character with a combination of a germaphobe, a person with obsessive-compulsive disorder, and someone who speaks without thinking first. trust me, if you haven't watched this series, i can guarantee that you will love it, especially if you love watching FRIENDS because this is just like the nerd version of FRIENDS.

best tv reality show

i always love american idol because it just gets better every season, and the very last season of this show proved that it's the best season so far. the addition of kara dioguardi as one of the judges also gave extra 'heat' to the show since she's never afraid to speak what's in her mind and unlike paula, she didnt always tell the contestants and audiences the 'sweet things'. the contestants were also damn excellent and the top 5 were exactly like what i expected (kris allen, adam lambert, danny gokey, allison iraheta, and matt giraud). eventhough kris allen became the winner, adam lambert is the true american idol for me, hehehe (well, it can be seen from the copies sold in the billboard chart tho, hehehe). i just can't wait to watch the next season and see what ellen degeneres will do on the hot seats of the judges! :)

best movie

is there any of you who haven't watched this movie yet? if you haven't, go watch it, like NOW, because this is very highly recommended to those who love stories about true love, having a dream, struggling to make it comes true, friendship, and meaning of a family mixed with a sprinkle of humour. Up told a story about an old man who wanted to make the dream of his former wife to have a house on the top of Paradise Falls, South America, came true by tying thousands of balloons (if you wonder how he got thousands of balloons, well, he sold them!) to his house and FLYING the house (yes, by making it FLY!) accross the country to South America. however, the story would go dull if he didn't have Russell, Kevin, and a talking dog with him all the way to Paradise Falls. who are they? find out by watching the movie then! :)

best book

i didn't read so many books this year, but at least i'm thankful i have read the best (well, that's what people said). andrea hirata's brilliance already could be seen from his three previous books, which are 'laskar pelangi', 'sang pemimpi', and 'edensor'. his first two books were already filmed, and the results were equally brilliant. as the finale of laskar pelangi tetralogy, this book had been awaited by all indonesian book lovers. of course people wanted to know the end of ikal's journey. what happened after he came back from france? would he find a ling, his childhood sweetheart and his forever love? would he be able to reach all his dreams? all of those questions were answered by this book. for those who want to read this book but haven't read the three previous books, unfortunately you have to start from the very beginning to understand this book. however, it is very worthed to read all the four books because all of them are very mesmerizing, and i guarantee that you will be amazed by the way andrea hirata wrote the whole story.

best track

i love almost all songs by taylor swift, but i love this song the most. the story behind the song is just EXACTLY like mine, resulting in this track staying like forever in my playlist, hahaha. the tune is also kinda catchy and it makes me love the song even more. the video describes what the song means very well too, and she acted really good in that video as the girl who got an unrequited love. you can watch the video here and yes, the guy in that video is tyler hilton :)

best album

once he became the runner up of american idol last season, i was thinking, how would his album be? he was good singing rock, pop, ballad, even songs with autotunes. he could make these songs still sounded good when he sang it with his high-pitched rockin' voice. then when i heard the music throughout this album, i directly knew the genre of his music : adam lambert's. yes, he made his own genre of music. it's because when you listen to this album, just like when you listen to lady gaga's, you will directly recognize that it's his song, his music, but it's kinda difficult to categorize his genre of music, so i think it's possible for him to have his own genre of music, isn't it? hehehe. however, this album is highly recommended to those who love music and it is very suitable to listeners of all genres of music. oh, and my favorite tracks are 'Whataya Want From Me', 'Aftermath', 'Pick U Up', 'Music Again', and 'For Your Entertainment'.

best videoclip
PLAIN WHITE T'S - 1,2,3,4

this videoclip proves that a beautiful video doesn't have to involve any computerized visual effects, bright colors, or amazing outfits. this video is actually very simple with Tom Higgenson, the vocalist of Plain White T's, singing on the streets of Chicago with his guitar, in black-and-white colors, and wearing daily clothes. what makes this video special is the story of the people (most of them are couples, but bestfriends, girlie gangs, families, even dogs and their owners are included) who watched him singing, the story of when and how they met. finally, the video ended at night, as Tom put his guitar back in its case, met his girlfriend, Angie, and it was stated that the song was dedicated to her. this is a very (or should i say ultra?) low budget video, however it is the sweetest video i have ever seen, and it does give a tingling sensation down in me everytime i watch this video, eventhough i watch it over and over. the music and lyrics of this song are also simple yet beautiful, just like the video :) anyway, you can watch the video here

best tidbits

guys, let me introduce you to these tiny little blocks of crispy deep-fried tofu. to make it more interesting, you can add various types of sauce such as pizza flavored sauce, cheese sauce, mayo sauce, BBQ sauce, or satay flavored sauce, or even mix two or more types of them! it's all about your creativity! isn't it fun? the result of my creativity is blueberry cheese sauce. yes, see the purple color in the picture? it's the blueberry sauce. dont raise your eyebrows yet. trust me, it's frikkin good! they make it with their own special recipe so that it's suitable with the crispy tofu. and oh, it's veeery cheap. it's only around 4000 rupiahs, or less than 50cents in US dollar. yums!

best eating out place

this restaurant is a bit far from the city, since it is located in Niron village, Sleman. however, it is very worth it to go such distance to have your lunch or dinner here, especially for those who love mushrooms, are vegetarians, and the ones who want to try something new for their culinary knowledge. by looking at the menu, you can directly recognize that mushroom is very flexible. you can have it as mushroom soup, mushroom satay (like the one pictured above), fried mushroom, or even mushroom rendang, and all of them are heavenly delicious for me, since i am such a mushroom lover. FYI, mushroom is very good for your bod since it is high in dietary fiber, vitamin D, and it enhances your immune system. so, why don't you have one plate of it in your menu today? :)

do you know that.....

~ Polar bears can eat as many as 86 penguins in a single sitting,

~ There are more bacteria in your mouth than there are people in the world,

~ Penguins can convert salt water into fresh water,

~ "I am." is the shortest complete sentence in the English language,

~ Non-dairy creamer is flammable,

~ About 1 out of 4 homeless people in South Korea own a credit card,

~ The most overdue book in the world was borrowed from Sidney Sussex College in Cambridge, England and was returned 288 years later,

~ Scorpions have 12 eyes,

~ Flamingos pee on their legs to keep warm,

~ An apple is more efficient than a cup of coffee for keeping people awake in the morning,

~ The bottom-half of your fingernails is called the air pocket, but scientists don't know why it's there,

~ The shortest word with all five vowels in alphabetical order is "aerious," meaning "airy",

~ The opposite sides of a die always add up to seven,

~ Jellyfish have no brains. They rely on nerve cells to help them see, smell, move, and eat,

~ No words in the English language rhymes with month, orange, silver, or purple,

~ If you were to count continuously every moment of every day, it would take 31,688 years to count to one trillion,

~ Butterflies taste their food with their feet,

~ The slanted line that divides fractions (ex: 1/2) is called a "virgule",

~ "Dysania" is the state of finding it hard to get out of bed in the morning,

~ If you spell out every number starting with one, you won't use the letter "a" until you reach one thousand,

~ The gorilla's scientific name is 'Gorilla gorilla gorilla',

~ The longest time a person has been in a coma is 37 years,

~ No piece of paper can be folded in half more than 7 times,

~ There are more kangaroos than people in Australia. The kangaroo population is estimated at 40 million,

~ When glass breaks it moves faster than 3,000 mph. To photograph this a camera must shoot at a millionth of a second,

~ Whispering is more wearing on your voice than speaking in a normal tone,

~ If MySpace was a country it would be the 5th largest country in the World,

~ A "jiffy" is an actual unit of time for 1/100th of a second,

~ "Stewardesses" is the longest word typed with only the left hand, "lollipop" with your right,

~ At least 2 people die every year from vending machines falling on them,

~ Of all the words in the English language, the word 'set' has the most definitions,

~ It is physically impossible to urinate and give blood at the same time,

~ The average full length pencil has enough lead to draw a line 35 miles long,

~ Slugs have 4 noses,

~ The dot that appears over the letter "i" is called a tittle,

~ Hawaii is moving toward Japan 4 inches every year,

~ If you keep a goldfish in the dark room, it will eventually turn white,

~ Cockroaches can live for 9 days after their head has been cut off,

~ It's against the law to slam your car door in Switzerland,

~ Lemons contain more sugar than strawberries,

~ A ribbon worm will eat themselves if they cannot find food. They can still survive after eating up to 95% of its body weight,


~ Onions have no flavor, only a smell?

if you have known all of these facts before, click here and find out what you haven't known :)

pon and zi! love love love

have you ever heard of them? ok then, let me introduce you to these two simple but unique creatures which are creepy but cute at the same time :D. well, i dont know which one pon and which one zi is, but what i got so far is the yellow one is a guy :P after you look at the pictures below, am sure you're gonna love them :D

oh and i love the pictures below the most :)

find more of them here
oh and if you have done enough 'research' on them, please let know which one pon and which one zi is. thank you :)

one night in KLIA :D

hahaha, yea i know maybe you have a thought of "was she too excited to go home or what?" well, yes i was really excited to go home, but i wasnt that excited until i decided to stay up in the airport alone, all by myself. my cousin usually takes me to the airport everytime am going home, but unfortunately she was going back to jakarta at that time, while her husband was going back to johor, his hometown, therefore i had to go to the airport alone. actually i could go there by cab, but my flight was in the morning (at 9.00 am, 17th november 2009) and i had to be in the airport at 7.00 am, which means i had to be ready at 6.00 am since it takes around 1 hour to go to the airport from my house. to be honest, since am not really used to going anywhere by cab, i was quite afraid to go to the airport by cab early in the morning, and most of my friends didnt suggest me to do so. yes, that's the story why i ended up staying up in the airport for the whole night, hehehe.
i arrived in the airport at around 9.00pm and i directly went to KFC for dinner. unfortunately am a kinda person who's fast in eating, so i didnt spend too much time at KFC. then i sat on one seat available near viewing area and turned on my laptop to get online. so sorry to say, the internet in KLIA is veeeerrrryyyyy slow and i was quite pissed since i couldnt access facebook properly, so i just relied on my twitter (spamming my followers' timeline, hehehe, sorry guys) to keep myself awake. it was quite disappointing because some of my friends wanted to accompany me and make sure am awake by chatting in facebook chatroom. another problem came when i realized that i almost ran out of battery and i didnt find any plug there, so i decided to turn off my laptop and sit there for a while. i listened to mp3 and drank this coffee

actually i prepared two cans of coffee from two different brands, but i drank this one first because i thought this one was milder than the other one and it was around 11 pm so i wasnt that sleepy at that time. after i finished the coffee, i went around KLIA to find plug in cafes and restaurants around there, especially the ones which open for 24 hours. luckily, i found two hidden plugs at McD behind their ice cream booth that i could use for charging my laptop and my cellphone after asking one of the cashiers there. these plugs definitely saved me from my boredom, hahaha. i also bought one glass of hot milo and one piece of hot apple pie, since it was qute freezing there and i needed something to keep myself warm.
soo i continued browsing and spamming my followers' timeline in twitter. i also accessed facebook but i had to refresh the page many times in order to make it work properly.
theeen suddenly i couldnt connect to the internet again. i asked one of McD workers in the ice cream booth and she said everyone only has two-hour quota for connecting to the internet in one day and it will only be renewed on the next day. dammit. and it was still 1 am. i still have 4 hours before check-in time. thank God i still have some movies in my harddisk and i had my headphone with me so i decided to watch 17 Again, listen to some musics, and watch some music videos until around 4 am and i had to turn off my laptop because i wanted to pee, hahaha. after going back from the toilet, i sat on the seat near viewing area again because i didnt want to buy anything more from McD (since i already went out from McD, of course i have to buy something if i want to sit there, rite?) and it was already around 4 am which means i can check in in around 1 hour. i felt a bit sleepy, maybe because of the hot milo i drank before, then i opened the other can of coffee

i looked around and saw some people sleeping on the seats around me. some of these people, i think, were backpackers, while the others were, i think again, non-backpackers like me. it could be seen from their luggage, hehehe.

it was only me awake around there while some security guards were going around. it was quite weird being in the airport without a lot of people rushing and hurrying or families sending their relatives. i usually hear tears and laughters from every corner, and at that time i just felt.... silence everywhere. i guess am still not used to seeing KLIA this empty, teehee~

i also took a picture of me at around 4.30am, and i hadnt slept at all at that time. i didnt sleep at all for the whole night until before my flight, hehehe. do i look sleepy to you, blogwalkers? teehee~

and you know what, i found one coin-activated computer near the toilet, so i used it to update my status in twitter and facebook, hehehe. you may roll your eyes, but this is the first time for me using this kinda computer eventhough i had been in KLIA for several times. i used it for around several minutes, and i spent around 50cents, hahaha. sorry i forgot to take the pic, hehew.
around 5am, i checked in the counter and continued to the immigration section before waiting for my flight. stupidly, after i passed the immigration section, i felt my tummy rumbling and i realized that i hadnt had my breakfast yet. unfortunately, food sold after immigration section are expensive chocolates and of course i couldnt spend like RM 100 just for my breakfast rite, hahaha. thank God, eventhough my tummy was rumbling like crazy, my brain still worked properly and i remembered that i still had four packs of these crunchy biscuits in my backpack. yeay!

of course these biscuits were enough to save me from my hunger attack, hahaha. and luckily, i also found a lot of plugs in the waiting room so i could connect to the internet again (since its already the next day, it was around 7 am) and charged my cellphone again since i used it for listening to the music and it kinda ran out of battery. so i browsed the internet until around 8.30 am, just right before my flight.
yes, that's my story of spending one sleepless night in the airport. it was quite boring and i dont know what i will do if i dont have my laptop with me, but it was a good experience tho. :)


firstly i wanna thank sri for planning such a great great GREAT vacation for all of us! hehehe~
well, last tuesday or 10th november 2009, the owner of this blog and her other 13 friends were having a whole day vacation. since am too lazy to write anything but too excited to tell you all about this vacation, i think putting these pictures and adding some explanations below each pic will be a great solution, teehee~

okaaayy soo we started the day by going to wetland putrajaya... and of course we did some water activities there *d'oh!*
afrah and i chose kayaking while the others picked boat rowing. yess, i knew that doing kayaking means that we have greater chance to get wet and also greater chance for the kayak to be upside-down, but i still wanted to do it because i found it more challenging, hehee~
i screamed many times while kayaking because we ALMOST got upside-down, and we were frustrated because the kayak kept turning around and around and it was hard to make it go straight, hahaha.

here come the water warriors! teehee~

this is the view of wetland, putrajaya... and some of my friends who were rowing ^^

kayaking with afrah ^^ for those who havent tried this one, YOU SHOULD TRY! this is challenging and fun at the same time, perfect for your adrenaline rush! :D

sooo after we finished one hour of our water activities, we went to alamanda putrajaya for lunch before going to.... bagan lalang beach! yesss ppl, we were going to the beach! hahaha, so excited. and it was like a dream comes true because actually i wanted to have a vacation to the beach with these guys, but i just didnt say it to them, teehee~
we reached the beach before sunset and the view of the sunset was just breathtaking! well, i'll just put the pics here, hehehe~

the view at around 5-6 pm after raining ^^

yess, we are the beach explorers, hahaha

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owyea, we had this high-school-musical-signature jump, hahaha~

gosh, how i love this scenery so damn much

me and my name on the sand :)

see the breathtaking sunset behind me?? isnt it just beautiful???

and we ended the day by having suppa-delicious seafood for dinner. we had grilled rayfish, calamari, 'pepahat', clams, crab, and many other kinds of seafood... and how much did we spend? only RM196 for 14 hungry people who were full after finishing all of these seafood. isnt it cheap??? i definitely love that place, hahaha.

goshh, the trip was just amazing! and i was quite sad because am not gonna meet these guys for around 8 months due to my industrial training at F&N Dairies during next semester... i will miss them all for sure, hehehe~

ps : i already finished all my final exams! jump for joy! hehehe~ and am gonna go back home on 17th of november until 27th of december. my current mood is happy, for sure, hehehe~

me and my heart, we got ISSUES

Gosh... i wish i knew this song earlier then it would be soundtrack of the moment at that time, hahaha

enjoy. this is a good song tho :) oh and please dont get bored if i keep posting videos, songs, or lyrics... these songs i posted really described what i felt and i cant help myself, hehehe~ it's one kinda un-boring replacement of my writings rite, i know that my writings could be very boring and confusing sometimes (or maybe all the time? teehee~)


Oooh, yeah,
Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
Boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
But then you smile at me and it's alright,
With you there ain't any in between...

Every time that I walk out the door
I tell myself I can't take it no more
There's a part of me won't let you go
I keep saying yes when my minds' saying' no...

Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues.

It's so hard; boy you leave me hangin' for so long
You empty out my love until it's all gone
You change the words but still it's the same song
I'm tired of the melody

Change my number and throw out your clothes
But my feelings for you, it still show
I keep building a wall round my heart
But then I see you it all falls apart...

Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you (damn I wish)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide)
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues.

Una (and Mollie):
Why fight it, (why fight it)
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Truth is I think I like it
Confusion, illusions (confusion, illusions)
Still I don't know which way to go,

Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you

The Saturdays:
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (We got to work this thing out)
Damn I wish that I could resist you (I don't know)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide if I )
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (issues)
We got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (we got to which way to go)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (I don't know)

PS : i'm having my final exams rite now. wish me a big good luck would ya? ^^

PSS : selamat hari sumpah pemuda dan selamat hari blogger nasional for indonesians! keep blogging, youngsters! :D

PSSS: i start to forgive and forget ^^ my bestfriends were rite, time heals the pain. now i feel better, folks. hopefully it gets better with time :)

es-ka-te ha-te

tumben2an yaa nulis gw dalam bahasa indonesia, hehehe. khusus buat post ini aja kok, abis itu ntar balik english lagi, soalnya khusus post ini lebih enak nulis dalam bahasa indonesia, lebih 'nyampe' aja maksudnya, meskipun yg baca mungkin ga ngerti, hehe. sorry for non-indonesian readers :P
well, oke. kalo mungkin buat yang ngikut, gw udah nulis di dua posts sebelumnya kalo gw lagi patah hati. yap, untuk kesekian kali, hahaha. dan ini yg terparah. such a shame :P
untuk kali ini, menurut gw patah hatinya agak beda. call me an extra-extrovert, tapi ga tahan juga kalo ga ditulis disini, hehehe.
mungkin buat beberapa temen2 gw yang ga begitu deket, mereka kaget kalo tau gw patah hati segini2nya, karena raut wajah dan klakuan gw masih sama aja kayak sebelom gw patah hati. well, gw emang selalu berusaha buat nunjukin kalo gw kuat, walopun sebenrnya engga, hehehe. padahal patah hati yg ini lebih parah dibanding patah hati gw yg disini (well, it was me 4 years ago. dont blame me for being so pathetic at that time, hahaha), tapi yaa efeknya tetep aja sama. jatoh2nya minder lagi. ngerasa not worth to be loved lagi, hahaha.
well, awalnya gw ga ada rasa sama sekali sama ni cowo. nahh, ini bedanya sama yg lain2 dan persamaannya sama yg waktu gw SMA dulu, sama2 awalnya ga ada rasa. nahh, karena lama2 ni cowo kayak suka nunjukin 'tanda2', gwnya lama2 jd GR *sumpah, i dont know what goes into me sampe berani bener nulis ni post. ntar kalo malu gw delete ah postnya, hahaha* yang terus makin lama makin gede dan gw mulai ngrasa kl gw cinta ama dia.
trusss setelah beberapa lama gw baru tau... kalo ni cowo udah punya cewe. hahaha anjrot kan. belom lagi pas akhir2nya gw niatan mau curhat ke sobat gw yg juga temen deketnya dia, tapi gw ga nyebut nama, ehh dasar emang mungkin kita sehati apa gimana, bisa aja dia nebak itu cowok sebenernya siapa, hahaha. tepat menembak sasaran pula. yaudahlah gw terpaksa ngaku kan ke dia, gw ceritain utuh semuanya ke dia, apa yg udah tu cowo lakuin sampe bikin gw jadi ketar ketir engga jelas (yang bisa dilihat di account twitter gw selama kira2 dua bulanan dari 7th august sampe sekitar saat2 ini lah, hehehe. ada banyak tweets nyelip yg ngegambarin perasaan gw. itupun juga kalo lo rajin buka2nya, hahaha)
and finally, i found out kalo itu cowo cuma BECANDA
oke, bukan maksudnya dia becanda sama perasaan gw, bukan. tapi emang begitulah gaya becanda dia. dia emang niatnya buat lucu2an aja, tapi karena emang dia belom pernah becanda kayak gini sebelumnya sama cewe, dan emang dasarnya gw ga begitu deket sama ni cowo jadi gw ga tau perangainya dia kayak apa, yaaa beginilah akhirnya, hehehe.
yaaaa, jujur gw susah ngedeskripsiin prasaan gw ke dia setelah gw tau yg sebenernya. gw masih ada sisa2 prasaan buat dia, itu emang jelas sulit ilangnya, gw tau. buat yg SMA dulu itu aja gw ilangnya ampe setaunan lebih, gw ga tau deh buat yg ini. kejadian ini aja udah ampir sebulan lalu and i still cant get over it, makanya gw nulis disini, kali2 aja bisa berkurang kan sakit atinya. sobat gw, yg gw curhatin itu, sempet nanya ke gw, apa gw jadi benci ke cowo ini setelah gw tau kalo dia cuma becanda. hmmm, gw sempet mikir dulu untuk ngejawabnya, errr sebenernya gw ga benci, cuma rasa marah, lebih tepatnya kecewa itu pasti ada. gw kecewa kenapa dia becanda kayak gitu ke gw, gw kecewa kenapa harus gw yang ngrasain kayak gini, dan mostly gw kecewa sama diri gw sendiri yang keGRan setengah mati dan jadi susah sendiri kayak gini (meskipun semua orang yg gw curhatin bilang kalo mereka pasti GR kalo diperlakukan hal yg sama kayak yg tu cowo lakuin ke gw).
tapi jujur, gw ngerasa gara2 feeling ini, gw jadi berubah. oke, memang sebelom ini bisa dibilang gw punya black and white life. i'm a nerd yang kerjaannya mantengin laptop, bolak balik kampus-rumah-kampus-rumah dan bisa dibilang serius banget soal pelajaran, tapi tetep gw itu orang yg happy-go-lucky, gw selalu berusaha untuk ceria tiap harinya dan semangat tiap kali bangun pagi dan jalan ke kampus. tapi gara2 perasaan ini, gw ngerasa emang ada yg hilang. gw jd lebih gloomy, lebih ga semangat, dan jadi.... aneh. yup, gw ngerasa aneh sama diri gw sendiri. misalnya, kayak sekarang dandanan gw balik ke preman lagi, kayak dandanan gw dua tahun lalu. gw balik lagi ke tshirt, jeans, sama sepatu kets. plus ngunyah permen karet ke sana sini. ga tau knapa, gw ngerasa dengan cara gw dress up kayak gini tuh gw mau nunjukin kalo gw bisa juga kuat, which means ya kayak preman. emang ga penting siy sebenrnya ahhaha.
FYI, dari waktu gw tau kl dia dah punya cewe sampe sekarang, gw ga bisa nangis, tapi ati gw udah sesek setengah mampus. kalo kata damara, emang gw harus nangis biar gw lebih lega, tapi gw udah nyoba segala cara tetep aja engga nangis. gw udah nonton proposal daisakusen yg bikin gw nangis bombay meskipun udah nonton beberapa kali, tetep ga nangis. gw udah denger heaven knows yang biasanya sukses bikin gw berurai air mata, masih ga nangis juga. bahkan denger graduation-nya vitamin c yang pasti berhasil bikin gw nangis parah aja masih ga mempan. tinggal ngiris bawang aja dah yg belom gw cobain, hahaha. alhasil sesak itu masih kerasa aja, sampe hari ini. dan gw masih berusaha menghilangkannya karena itu amat sangat tidak nyaman sekali *halah. semua orang jg tau kali.
yaah, pokoknya intinya gitu deh. emang ga jelas banget ya post gw kali ini, tapi ternyata bikin 'pngakuan' itu rada melegakan lho. moga2 time will heal the pain deh. amin. doakan ya readers, semoga post2 berikutnya gw udah dalam keadaan yg lebih ceria dan ga gloomy kayak yg sekarang ini :)
oya, sekalian gw mau taro disini tweet gw directly after i know kalo itu cowo sudah berpacar. ga tau knapa, gw suka aja sama tweet yg ini hehehe. call me pathetic :P

"to you: thanks for giving me colours in my life for the past one month. thanks for giving me butterflies everytime i see you. thanks for making me smile and cry. thanks for making me feel this way. thanks for everything. Am gonna miss you. And your smile :) oh, one more thing! i dont know her, but i know that she deserves having you. please dont break her heart like what you do to me :)"
- sep 10th from web

adios amigos! :)

ps: and my playlist till today still contains gabrielle - out of reach, gareth gates - walk on by, keith urban - you'll think of me, michelle branch - goodbye to you, samsons - luluh, s club 7 - never had a dream come true, a1 - i'll take the tears, and most importantly, rick price - heaven knows :P


well, this might be the shortest entry i have ever written, but this is the answer for the big question mark in my head and also the conclusion of my previous longer entries
and here it is...

"I need a person who really cares about me . who texts me after we went together . who texts me when he wakes up cause he wishes he woke up next to me . who waits till i close the door before he left . who hugs me tight before the night is over . second thought, i don't need it . i want it ."

taken from Ayu Rianna Amardhi's blog


nowadays, i feel like there is always at least a song for me for everything i feel on that day. like this one below :


Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right


And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

[Chorus x2]

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

err, well, actually you can pass the 'three years' part since he and i havent started anything yet, hehehe.
sooo.... this is how the story ends. of course this is not a happy ending like in cinderella's story, but at least now i know that you are not the one for me. dont forget to send my regards to her :)

please welcome : CLIQUE GIRLZ!

well, you probably think that this is just a typical teenage girl band with monkey lovey dovey lyrics and teeny weeny voice just from seeing its name. if you do, you are ABSOLUTELY WRONG!

check them out :

and please check this one out too :

see??? they have talent! now, do you still think that being in a girl band always means to show off your flesh? (*cough* ehm ehm, pussycat dolls) hahaha~

dumping my junk

have you ever felt this way...
when you have a feeling towards someone, but you cannot do anything with it
you cannot declare that feeling, you even cannot show just a little bit of it to that person. you cannot show that you care, you're happy when you see that person, and you miss him when he's not around. you miss him so much that you want to cry, but when he's around, you just keep avoiding him because you know you'll blush when you're around him and you don't want him to see that blush on your cheek
all you can do is just keeping your cool, try so hard to hide the feeling so that no one knows, while people can see that your eyes sparkle when you look into his eyes when he talks to you
and why are you doing that?
because you're not sure that he is feeling the same way too
because you feel that you're not good enough for him, because you dont think that you can be someone that he can be proud of or someone who is pretty enough to make him into you
because you're tired of feeling rejected when you showed your feeling to someone you like in the past
because you keep telling yourself that he doesn't have any feeling towards you, therefore you just keep avoiding him to prevent your feeling to grow

and finally you write this kind of post because you're tired of keeping all these stuff inside your head and your heart?

if you have ever felt this way
what did you do to that feeling??

*ok, i'm blabbering. maybe it's because i'm stressed. i had so many difficult tests this week, and addition of having this kinda feeling just made me wanna cry. i already faced this kinda uncertainty so many times, but i dont know why this is the only one that really blows my head and makes me feel like my heart is going to explode because i cannot hold it anymore.
well, i think i should clean my room and forget about it.

ps : and i still keep listening to colbie caillat - 'fallin for you' over and over. maybe i should listen to westlife - 'obvious' too. these songs were really made for ME!! :|

yo, this is my JAM!! :D

hahaha, i know it's late at night, i need to attend class at 8 tomorrow morning, and i'm gonna have a food microbiology test tomorrow evening, but i just caaaan't help not post this video! THIS is the song which is truly made for me! hahaha~ enjoy

click here to see the video, sorry embedding is disabled by request :( but the video is really worth to watch, the man in the video is just SOOO funny! :D


Falling For You - Colbie Caillat

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Oh no no
Oh I'm fallin' for you

yes, it's true. i'm fallin' for you :)

celebrity lookalikes :)

have you ever experienced this kinda thing : you look at any celebrity, either on TV or in newspapers and magazines, and suddenly something 'pop' in your head, telling you that you have ever seen any other celebrity who looks exactly like him/her? well, this happened to me many times, and trust me, i suddenly felt curious enough to spend one whole day thinking who is any other celebrity who can finally make me feel "yes, that's it! that's the one who looks like her!" hehehe *hyperbolic mode : on
and here are some celebrities who are lookalikes, well, at least for me :)

1. jamie lynn spears & kristin cavallari

britney spears' sister and the hills chick. hmmm. somehow they are quite alike :)

2. katherine heigl and kylie minogue

the age gap between them may be quite far (10 years), but i never know that they can look nearly the same!

3. miley cyrus and rachael ray

well, maybe if you see them on TV, you will never think that they are lookalike. but look at this pic. arent they such twins? :D

4. ellen degeneres and owen wilson

two funny people, and it's funny to know that they are lookalike. well, i didnt think they are until i saw this pic though :))

5. will ferrell and chad from red hot chili peppers

i'm not familiar with RHCP, but looking at this pic, i cant deny that they might be brothers in the past :))

6. leighton meester and minka kelly

i dont know who minka kelly is, but it's quite surprising to know that there's someone who looks as cute as leighton meester :)

7. alicia keys and jessica alba

the same case as miley and rachael. when you look at them separately, jessica doesnt remind you of alicia at all. but after looking at this pic, hmmm i think they will remind me of one another :D

8. allison iraheta and kelly clarkson

both of them are from american idol, and randy jackson already said many times that allison reminded him of kelly from the way she sings. you forgot one thing randy, they look the same too :)

9. demi moore and courteney cox

which one is demi? which one is courteney?? i cant differentiate one from another, help!

10. russell crowe and benjamin mckenzie (ryan atwood from the oc)

they could be father and son! hehehe, anyone disagrees??

11. amy adams and isla fisher

i definitely agree with this! i even thought that it's isla fisher in night at the museum 2, not amy adams! FYI, amy adams is the one on the right pic :)

12. ryan phillipe and hayden christensen

and both of them are my favorite hotties, hehehe :)

13. keira knightley and natalie portman

this pair is the winner. they are definitely twins separated at birth!

do you have some thoughts of celebrity lookalikes too? share them with me, please! :)