hello! :D
sooooo this is my first post here in blogspot (since the previous posts are the ones that i moved from blogdrive) and second post in 2012 (when 2012 is about to end.... ckckckck. how productive i am :P)
it was a good 7 year journey with blogdrive, and it was actually kinda tough decision for me to move from blogdrive to blogspot. in the end, i still have to move out since my blogdrive is no longer accessible (because it turned into this freaky search engine-like website! i wonder how and why >.<) and maaaaan seriously, moving 200-something posts MANUALLY (since i am not a premium user, therefore i am not entitled to have backups of my blog posts and not able to migrate the posts automatically *sobs*) is no joke. it took me around 3 days to move them all. sadly, i cannot transfer the comments, so all the comments in my blog posts are back to zero (but i am not really complaining because the comments i received recently were mostly spams anyway :P). however, it is kinda good thing to move to blogspot since i have found a website which is able to create blogbook from blogspot and wordpress. i always love tweetbook, so i guess i will love having blogbooks too :)
it would probably take faster time to transfer all the blog posts from blogdrive to here if i did not spend too much time on re-reading my old blog posts :P and i definitely could see that i have changed during the past 7 years.
2005 was my most active year with 49 posts. i guess i was so excited with blogging at that time, and now i even think that most of my blog posts were something that make me rise one eyebrow and think like 'whaaaat on earth was i thinking when i posted this back then???' :D besides, i was not acquainted yet with twitter and facebook, and of course i need some place to rant, squeal, basically a place to dump every feeling and experience that i get everyday. i started blogging when i was in second year of high school, and the instability of my teenage hormones was at its peak at that time, so don't get surprised when you are pretty much interested to dig some parts of my past, particularly in that year, then you come across a wailing post, only to be followed by a happy cheery post one or two days later :P
and maaaaaannn i cannot stand the way i typed back then! i tYpEd LikE tHis and now i wonder why i was not tired at that time, typing one long post in tHis KinD oF sTYLe :P but well, ahm, i thought it would look cool at that time. thank God i already passed that stage (blame my teenage hormones. again. :P)
in 2006, you can see that my posts had been 'toned' down :D i did not use excessive exclamation nor question marks, i did not tYpE LiKe ThiS (thank GOD!), and i wrote less emo posts :P i was more into random things like discussing about movies, TV commercials, or weird occurrences happening in my daily life. however, 2006 was the year when i was trying to find out about my own personality the most, and it can be seen in some posts where i was confused about how i should behave and what kind of person actually i was. you will also see that i was ranting about IGCSE like A LOT since, to be honest, it was the most frustrating exam i had ever taken in my life (and i did not even take physics at that time. i would have been muddled by then :P). IGCSE also holds the record for being the exam with the longest period since it took me almost one month to finish all the papers (to the limit that i got stomachache, nausea, fever, and i lost my voice. thank you) and one whole year of full preparation. the results were not like what i expected, but it was the best that i could do.
2007 was the year with the most various happenings in my life. i was graduated from high school and i managed to pass the university entrance exam for Gadjah Mada University (although i turned down the offer and chose UPM instead :P). i filled in the gap between july to december with anything that i could do to vanish my boredom at home (from cooking and reading various books, to watching movies and dramas on TV). i also wrote posts about my worry before going to UPM about how to start living alone for the first time, how to adapt in such new environment without my parents by my side, and how to survive my university life because being a university student is completely different from being a high school student. there were also posts about my first times in UPM, like first class that i attended, new international student welcoming program, first indonesian people that i got introduced with, first housemates and roommate, first friend in my class, and many others. it was fun reading my posts in 2007 because all the memories came back to me and without realizing it, i was already giggling since they remind me of how naive but adventurous i was at that time.
in 2008, i wrote mostly when i was in my hometown during semester break because - yeah, you've guessed it - i have nothing to do. i discussed mostly about movies i rented and tv series that i watched. if i may say, 2008 was my 'introvert' year, in which i rarely wrote about my feelings and i wrote about incidents, my opinions about stuff, or even random things, like my university bus or library, instead. when i try to remember now, i think i was a quiet and very secretive person in 2008. i was more concentrated into my university stuff at that time. i did not care about befriending anyone, or even falling in love (well, i can't deny that i had a few crushes back then, but still :P). i tried to enjoy life without thinking about those kind of things, and i think i was quite happy with my black and white life at that time :)
2009 was a totally different story. the first difference was i started to write more intensely in english. secondly, i was into american idol and i fell for adam lambert at that time *grin*. i started to get closer to my classmates and i started to 'spark' more colors into my life. however, i was back to my emo self and i wrote a lot of posts (or implied ones :P) about this one guy that i fell for during that year. that was the first time when i had a feeling for someone and i was sure that there was 'something' between us (oh myyyy shame on meeeee >.<), so i was like, i did not get it why the reality happening was not like what i expected.
i also posted my very first (and maybe only :P) video-log in 2009, together with other music videos that i like at that time. i was into posts with short writings, and putting more videos or pictures instead. well, one picture says a thousand words, right? :D
2010, 2011, and 2012 were my unproductive years. i was soooooo busy during these times, but i did not forget to give summaries on my life happenings. it was very unfortunate for me to write less during those years, because important events happened during these times. i had my first internships, first boyfriend, first breakup. i was a final year student, i was graduated, and currently being a postgraduate student. i was, and am still, in love with the same guy over the last two years. yes, this was the longest period for me falling in love with someone, and i have reached a very desperate state in how to forget this guy because i am really sure that he has no feeling for me. most of the posts were also dedicated for him, including a stupid poem that i made when i realized that i fell for him for the first time, a tearful (yes, this guy is also the one who makes me cry the most) post when i decided to move on and let him go (but being stupid me, i still haven't done it, until this very second), and a post that i wrote when i was at the peak of 'how the hell can i forget this guy??' because it is, believe me, hard to do so (well, i have said that i am reaching a very desperate state, haven't i?).
after having, at least, a glance on those 200-something posts, i realized that i have changed. i grew up, that is for sure. i don't say that i have become mature or something (because yes, i admit that i haven't. i am still being my childish self :P), but i have turned into someone better (well, i have to! XD). i do not regret anything, not every single thing, that happened in my life, because they happened for a reason and they have made me who i am right now. it feels good to have such memories. well, at least they can be something to laugh over when i am stressed or something, right? :)
however, there is one thing that has not changed over the years.
i still write posts about how unattractive i am. i still blame my looks for staying single. i am still being my unconfident self. i am also still the same old heartbroken person :P
ehm ehm.
sooo, i cannot promise anything, but i will try to write more, because i just realize that i miss writing blog posts so much (since i am more into microblogging a.k.a twitter nowadays >.<)
see you when i see you! :)
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