Seeing Siwon

First of all, OMG I still can't believe that I just saw CHOI SIWON just RIGHT in front of my eyes, he wasn't even more than 100 metre from where I stood, and I could see him for FREE (well, except the RM 5 that I had to spent in total for the transportation fare, but it doesn't matter at all since it's for Choi Siwon okay, and...alright, I guess I start to get out of context so I better stop :D)

Well, I think it's better to know the full story from the very beginning, ne?

It all started from this tweet in his account @siwon407

And I was like

Because, come on, he's in Malaysia and I didn't even know a thing about that?? I didn't even know what event he's about to attend whatsoever!
So I decided to check on some SJ fanbases in Malaysia to get some info, but it seemed like they didn't know a thing about that either. I wasn't prepared about this at all. I was on my way to campus when I read his first tweet, and I had to settle some things in the morning, so when the second tweet came

I directly checked on one of Siwon's Malaysian fanbases, @mymrsiwon, and found out that he stayed (or is staying? Since rumour has it that he's going to be here until March 27th) at Ritz-Carlton Hotel, which is located like only across of KL Sentral. I was like, oh maaaannn, if I didn't have to settle my things, I would directly go there and join all the ELFs to wait for him!!

During lunch, I told Zhafarina that Siwon came to Malaysia and at that time, the third tweet came

I asked Zhafarina whether she knows this place, and apparently she does! She said that the park is just minutes from her house, and she offered that we could go see him together! Of course I didn't waste her offer and agreed to it right away since I didn't have anything to do in the lab after lunch. She is a fan of Siwon too anyway, although she's not an ELF (don't get confused. It is definitely possible for her XD).
From @mymrsiwon, we also found out that Siwon was here for LINE CF shoot. Although Siwon stated that he would arrive around 5 pm, Zhaf said that the parking lot at the park is so small and she's afraid that we wouldn't get any parking spot if we arrived late. Besides, after 4pm, there would most definitely be traffic jam around KL because it's the time when people go back from office. Furthermore, KL is also pretty far from my campus since UPM is situated in Serdang. So, at the end, what time did we decide to leave UPM?

2.30 pm. Yes, you read it right, which is like 2 and a half hours away from the appointed time. Yes, we're just that enthusiastic (or being too cautious, I have no idea either XD).

We departed from UPM around 2.40 pm, and surprisingly our dearest supervisor (Dr. K) gave her full support to us (although we had to go through some teasings from her first :P). We arrived there around 3.00 pm (because Zhaf was too excited and she drove like a mad woman, I tell ya :P), and we were the first fans to arrive! Kekekeke~

So we entered the park and we were like thinking, "Oh man... Which part of this enormous park will he be?" because this park had three different entrances, and the entrances were like from one end to another. We were afraid that we wouldn't get even a glimpse of him if we were at the wrong entrance. And you know what we did? We decided to check all entrances and tried to figure out which entrance that would be the most possible one for him to get into the park ("I guess he would enter from the middle entrance. It's the main entrance after all, and the parking lot is bigger." "But if I had to be the one responsible to bring Siwon, I would be as undercover as possible, and I would choose this entrance since it's the most hidden and nobody would guess that he enters from here." "But the parking lot is too small. I'm pretty sure he'll come with his entourage and all the props, the parking lot here won't occupy them all." "Or is it possible that he will enter from the entrance where we park the car? It's pretty hidden, and the parking lot is quite spacious after all."). And while we were debating about all the possibilities.... We suddenly saw one white van with a motorcycled police accompanying it. Of course we were like... Omona, is that him?? But it's still around 4 pm, it can't be him!
We decided to get closer anyway, and so the rest of ELFs who were waiting at the park. Gosh, when I saw the rest of ELFs, I suddenly felt old since they all look like they're still teenagers, or the oldest they can be is around 21-22 years old. They brought their banners, mostly asking for SS5 to be held in Malaysia. They also brought their killer DSLR with their gigantuous lenses, while we only had our cellphones, with half-filled battery somemore, with us. They were definitely more prepared than us, clearly :P

this was just A QUARTER of the crowd. Impressive, right?

Then trucks bringing the props started coming, and I even saw this truck which was meant to be changing room+toilet. This was the first time for me to see such thing!

see the one with ladder? that's the toilet+changing room truck!

The staffs also started to set up the props.

We also got a few 'false alarms' since the crowd started cheering everytime there was any car coming and parked near those trucks. There was even one sport car parked around there and the crowd already went crazy because they all thought that it's Siwon, but it wasn't after all :P Zhafarina and I were not part of the crowd since we preferred to secure our spot near the shooting area. He's going to have his shoot there anyway, so it's better to see him up close during shooting rather than only having a glimpse of him when he gets out the car, right? :D

Around 5.10-5.15 pm (I didn't really remember the exact time), a van arrived together with two motorcycled police, and we're really sure that Siwon must be inside that van. Prince Manager came out first and checked the area, while Siwon stayed in the van for quite some time.

Prince Manager was the one in white. The lighting and my camera both sucked big time, please understand >,<

I guess Siwon did his makeup first in the van. You guys really have to know that Prince Manager is reaaaally handsome up close! He really deserves to be an idol himself, IMHO. Unfortunately he moved too fast and I couldn't catch even a clear pic of him with my stupid cellphone camera >.<

After failing to get a decent pic of Prince Manager, I really wanted to get at least a pic of Siwon so that at least I have a proof. So you know what I did? I asked Zhafarina if she wanted to join me to look at the van together with other ELFs, but she said she better stayed to secure our spot, so I left her for a while and to get better view I decided to...climb a slide.
Yes, a FRIGGIN SLIDE. See, the things that I did to get your pic, Siwon! Wkwkwk~

Aaaaaaand there he comes!

my handsome namja in blue! Gyaaaaa~

Sorry for the REALLY crappy quality of the pic. It was zoomed somemore :P

Yes, you can see that the security was tight.

You know what, I already warned Zhafarina at first if I suddenly cried or even fainted because omg this is my bias okay. However, when Siwon was walking through the crowd in front of my eyes, the only thing I could do was chanting "omigod omigod omigod omigod" over and over without even realizing it. I was like totally speechless. I couldn't even scream "Siwon oppa! Siwon-shii!" like what others did since I literally made an :O face. Trust me, Siwon in real life is much much much much MUCH more handsome than even the most handsome picture or ad of him you've ever seen, like seriously. His skin is soooo fairly white (if he's this white in real life, I can't imagine how pale Kyuhyun or Eunhyuk is in real life, to be honest. Or was it just the afternoon sun tricking me? I have no idea) and totally flawless! He's also really tall (well, he's 182-183 cm after all) and his body is soooo nicely built. The good thing about him is he kept on smiling and I didn't even see a single frown coming from him even until the shoot had ended.

touch up, touch up....

sorry oppa, Malaysia must be scorching hot for you....

stupid tree, you block uri oppa's face!

FINALLY  a (quite) decent picture of Siwon-oppa!

He's also very friendly and kept waving to us everytime he had a short break. Since it's Siwon, and it's not like every day we can see him, I guess it's very normal for any of us to shout his name at all times. The director (who was a girl) was a bit mad at first since we didn't want to shut up eventhough she already warned us. The funny thing was after Siwon borrowed the director's mic and said "no screaming please" while smiling, we couldn't help seeing his smile and screamed even louder XD.

The scenes itself were really short. He just had to walk several steps and acted like he had a small talk with the model in the first scene, but it needed to be repeated a lot of times. Some of the girls in the crowd said that the model was from Singapore, but I'm not sure either. The model is reaaaaally pretty, and the first thing that I noticed from her was that she got really nice hair, kekeke.

Siwon-oppa with the model

The next scene was a hug between Siwon and the model. Like what I expected, there were some 'ooohs' and 'aaahs' coming from the crowd when they hugged, but luckily the director didn't get mad at us this time :P seriously, even to get equal and balanced height for the two of them, the model had to wear really high heels, and it made me realize even more to the fact that Siwon is so tall :P

The second scene itself also had to be repeated a lot of times (and I kept on thinking oh guuuurl how lucky you are to be able to hug him like a zillion times!), and thunder already started to roar towards the end of the shoot. Siwon made this funny gesture without saying a word to ask us to pray so that it didn't rain, so cute! However, it was finally raining at the end, but thankfully the shoot was over already. After taking some pictures using his iPhone (including this and this pic that he uploaded in his twitter. Seriously, the crowd directly went wild when he gestured to us to take the pic together. Poor security guards XD), he ran back to his van through the crowd, all of sudden. When he was running, all of us spontaneously shouted "SS5! SS5! SS5!" altogether. It was daebak to be honest :D

.... And that was the end of our 'Seeing Siwon' adventure ^^

We went out from the park around 7.00 pm with smiles on our faces. Though he didn't get a chance to say anything to us ELFs, we are really satisfied. Until now, I still can't believe that I just met my bias in SJ and saw him live in front of my eyes. Seriously, I still feel like it was just a dream. This was a really nice experience, and definitely I'll sleep with smile on my face too tonight :)

Soooo that's all from me folks. So sorry for the very low quality of the pics and also if the way I tell the story is kinda boring ^^

Ciao!

ps: Stupid blogger doesn't let me rotate my pics! Grrrrr~ sorry for all the inconveniences! >.<
pss: We were featured in 8tv Nite Live's Facebook! Gyaaaa~ (although half of our faces were not pictured, kekeke. I was the one in SAPPHIRE BLUE tshirt, Zhaf was the one in plaid shirt)

beware of the Big Bad Wolf!

hello all! :)
soooo how was your february? mine was as boring as usual and naaaah you don't want to know about that, so i'll just skip to the topic that i want to let all of you know today:

BOOKS!!

reading is one of my not-so-guilty pleasures, and it is such a shame to realize that i haven't read any books (outside of research or class purposes :P) since two years ago (blame on my FYP... ouch). so when i heard from syamil last time that Big Bad Wolf Book Sale is coming.... of course i wouldn't miss my chance this time around!

i'm sure that those who live in malaysia and love reading know about this beasty book sale. why i call this beasty is because they totally cut off the prices of their books like crazy.... can you imagine getting imported novels (and it's not only for those unpopular ones - i even saw mitch albom's too!) for only rm 8 each??

yup... i never imagined that before meeting this wolf too :P so it's definitely not a surprise when you see a sea of people in front of your eyes like this, rite?

to be honest, i was mesmerized with the sea of books in front of me. since i am a novel lover, after getting one empty box to bring my hauls, i directly turned my heels to fiction section, which basically filled about one third of the big big hall

i screened every title and cover of the books before reading the synopsis and deciding whether to buy the book or not. i am basically a fan of chicklits, but i definitely won't mind a little sci-fi. i am pretty proud of myself knowing that i was diligent and patient enough to stroll each of those tables and screen the titles one by one for around three hours (and i am totally not kidding you when i say that i started to feel numb on my feet at the end of our book hunting session that night :P). without realizing it, i already filled my empty box with eleven novels in total :P

and here are the titles of the books that i bought that day

four of them are my sister's. she actually asked for percy jackson series (she is a fan of harry potter, hunger games, percy jackson, and their kinds), but i couldn't find the complete series, so she asked me to buy any novels which were in that category. at the end, i bought alfred kropp, heroes of the valley, the dragonfly pool, and the secret to lying (these books still fall into that category rite?? RITE??).

anyway, i basically spent rm 80 in total for 11 novels... wasn't that a steal??? and i was very satisfied bringing these books home!

aaaand i was completely surprised knowing that there would be big bad wolf aftermath sale from february 28 to march 4! i was even more surprised knowing that the already-low-price of imported novels was cut even further to rm 5! however, i wasn't about to go at first since i haven't even finished my hauls last time, but since safura offered rm 20 from her book voucher to me, i was beyond happy to receive her offer since rm 20 could afford me 4 new books! :)

safura, syamil, and i went there on the very first day, and we were a bit disappointed knowing that they only occupied half of the very same hall from the last time. however, the crowd was still there

to be honest, i didn't experience the same enthusiasm with the one that i had during the last BBW. i only strolled around half of the fiction section and i gave up already. soooo here are four books that i managed to get last thursday (the one titled seekers is my sister's):

i guess the meaning of 'aftermath' in BBW this time really means the aftermath of the last BBW, meaning that they only sold those novels that people were not interested to buy, since the titles and authors of the novels in fiction section seemed foreign to me. however, BBW Aftermath Sale is definitely a good chance for those who have BB1M (Baucer Buku 1 Malaysia) and want to get free books to read :)


sooooo that's all from me. adios amigos! :)

being readable

ehm, first of all, happy new year everybody! *well, i knowwww this is like two months late but since this is my first post in 2013, no harm done rite? :P*

sooooooo

ehm

back to the point

last night, i had a talk with my roommate before we drifted to sleep. i didn't know what was the topic before that, but then my roommate (who had known me for 5 years) told me that i'm like... the most readable person in the world.
what readable means here is people can see what i feel or what i think clearly on my face (does that mean i'm an expressive person too...? well, idk). you are definitely able to easily know whether i am sad, frustrated, panic, happy. people also can see if i don't like a person or if i do, if i fake a laugh, or if i feel uncomfortable.

when i took my bath this morning (don't furrow your brows yet. i am person who definitely agrees with the idea that bathroom is the most perfect place to make life decisions. and i tend to overanalyze and overthink somemore, so this often happens :P), i thought of the pros and cons being a readable person.

For the cons, of course, being a readable person will make other people know if i don't feel comfortable with them or something like that, and it will make them feel uncomfortable too. this is what i don't like the most about being (too) readable. sometimes it's just a small thing like laughing over a not-so-funny joke, and the person who gave the joke knew that i just faked a laugh to make that person happy. trust me, it put you in a sooooo awkward situation. that was just one small example. the most difficult thing that i (still) have to overcome is to know how to cover my expression so that it won't show if i don't like a specific person. my other friend once said that i can change my expression in a blink of an eye once anyone that i don't like comes into view, no matter how much i try to keep smiling whatsoever. and the funny thing is, it will also happen if the person i like (you know, that kind of like, like like) is within my sight. i will even try harder to put my cool facade eventhough i feel all jumpy inside. again, no matter how hard i try, you will always see from (at least) my eyes that i feel differently for that particular person.
since i haven't found the perfect solution to this problem, i tend to avoid those people who have the 'potential' to make me give such expressions. this is the major reason why i tend to avoid some people in my life because, trust me, i sincerely do not want things to get ugly, and the safest thing to do is to keep some distance from them. so, if you feel like i'm avoiding you, it's either because i like you, or i hate you. good luck figuring out which one :P


however, what i like about this trait is i'm not fake. since i cannot lie through my expressions, i tend to tell the truth too, because it's definitely no use to lie if they can see it from my face anyway. that's why some people also think of me as a blunt person. it sometimes gets worse if i can't find the right words and those people even think of me as a harsh human being. believe me, i don't even mean to do that. it's never my intention to be harsh. it's just a matter of me not being able to find the right gesture or right words to say. people who are close to me already know about this and that's why i'm glad that they're still with me through thick and thin.


there are some questions bugging my head when i thought about this thing this morning. is being readable such natural characteristic that you cannot simply change, or is it just an attitude that you can change someday? if it is natural, then i can't help but stick to being readable forever. but if i can, somehow, 'learn' how to mask what i feel or what i think, i would like to do so, because i don't want to make people feel uncomfortable with me. i don't want to avoid more people in my life either.


to those who manage to read this far, i salute you because you can keep up with my useless and nonsense rant, kekeke. thanks for reading anyway, i'll appreciate it more if you can give me some solutions too ^^


soooooo till next time! ciao :)

dear past me, dear future me

ho-ho-ho!
*naaaahh i'm not copying santa claus' greeting. i'm just out of ideas on how to say hello ^^*

yesss i know this is 23rd of december and i usually make a post of 'the best of *insert year here*', but since this year was just as dull as last year, i don't think i'll make any this year (but well, i still have 7 days to go until the end of this year, and i may reconsider about it :D)

soooo i'm going to make a letter for past me and future me instead, inspired by a post in tumblr :) i guess this is such a good way to evaluate and introspect ourselves over the years, don't you think? and this is definitely such a good way too to end one year and start another year :) hopefully i'm gonna make good letters for both of them ^^

may i start now? :)



dear Past Me,
i know you kinda regret a lot. you regret why you didn't really mingle with anyone, you regret why you didn't take engineering-related subjects seriously, you regret why you didn't start dieting or exercising, you regret why you weren't more feminine back then, you regret why you were too naive... but you know what? YOU DON'T NEED TO. yes, exactly, you really don't need to regret whatever you've done.

well, it was not really a good thing that you didn't mingle with anyone, but anyway, you still managed to get close and trusted friends, didn't you? friends who came to you, who tried to approach you first, basically those who accepted you just the way you are. you already showed the true you to them. the true, introvert you, who is such an awkward turtle, and they still wanted to be friends with you. it's not something that you need to regret, is it? just think of it as an effortless way to get best friends, and you won't regret it that much. it's still a good thing that you didn't push them away and you accepted them with open arms. you will feel much better knowing that these people still stay by your side until today :)

yes yes, i do understand, you don't need to explain again why you hate engineering-related subjects so much because i still hate it until this very minute :P i know you still regret why you didn't put much effort on understanding those formulas and solving those confusing problems, because if you did maybe you could add another 0.08 to your CGPA, be a first-class graduate, and continue straight away to PhD. however, eventhough you think that way, trust me, YOU HAVE TRIED YOUR BEST. engineering is difficult to tackle, and although you felt like giving up so many times, you still pushed yourself to your limit to understand them. you had your procrastinating moments back then, but it is really understandable since you took extra credits at that time, and of course engineering-related subjects weren't the only ones which need extra care. you divided your attention really well, and i'm proud of you right now. so, no need to regret ait? :)

dieting and exercising are two alien words, it's not included in our dictionary okay XD and how come you regret that you didn't start dieting, what was the two-meals-of-fitnesse-cereals-per-day-as-replacement-of-breakfast-and-dinner then? and how come you regret that you didn't start exercising when you walk back and forth to campus everyday? you did! but you also need to realize that the digits of our weight haven't changed since the last three years, and eventhough we gained extra 6 kg after eid holiday, you managed to lose them all and made our weight go back to its usual digits. you've made it after all :)

i believe that you'll keep regretting why you aren't feminine, even until the future. however, now i try to think positively by saying that you just tried to make yourself comfortable, and it's totally okay. you work in a lab, you need to go around, pick this and that glassware, work with chemicals, and nothing is more comfortable than wearing a pair of jeans, tshirt, and a pair of sneakers. i don't think that you'll work that well with heels or girly blouse with ruffles and lace anyway, so what is there to regret? you know your priorities, and that's all what it takes :)

aaaaand there there, being naive is definitely not something that you need to regret. i know that you feel really stupid afterwards, you can't believe it like 'how could he do that to me??' and other stuff. although a zillion people already said this to you, i think i need to repeat again that IT'S A VALUABLE LIFE LESSON. you have experienced this kinda thing twice, and of course you won't let that happen again to yourself will you? it's okay to feel stupid, but make sure that you shrug it off after and think of it as a speck of tiny little dust in your big big life. 

you still have so many things to regret, don't you? before adding one to another, you better ask yourself, are you happy all this time? you're surrounded by your closest and most trusted people without even trying, your family loves you so much and unconditionally, you have very nice labmates and lab staffs, you're progressing on your project steadily, you have the most understanding supervisor ever, you have your supply of books and k-shows and k-dramas if you feel bored all of sudden, you have enough food, you have enough money, don't you think that you're happy? because it's all that matters. as long as you're happy inside and out and you lived your life responsibly, you don't need to worry about anything else. now smile, because you look much better when you do :)


Love you,
Present Me

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dear Future Me,
I have A LOOOOOOT of things to write to you, and you better pay attention to every single thing i say, without fail :D

first of all, be grateful for all you have right now. i know that you're not as rich as paris hilton or as beautiful as jessica alba or as sexy as scarlett johansson or as genius as einstein or whatsoever, but it doesn't give you any reason to have such low self-esteem. who cares if you don't have a boyfriend? it doesn't mean that you're not pretty enough. it's just that he hasn't found the right way to come to you :) eventhough you might be jealous of those who have someone to be lovey-dovey with, just think of this as having an opportunity to spazz on minho and other handsome folks more, because i don't think that your boyfriend will be happy if you still spazz on them when you're in a relationship with him later XD

secondly, those who are close to you are your most valuable treasures. your family, your closest friends, they're all your gems. treat them like how they treat you, because no matter how sucky you are, they still stick to you and you better know that they're rare species. love them, be there when they need you, help them as much as you can, because you'll never be thankful enough of them.

thirdly, don't think too much on unnecessary things. don't get attached to much, because you weren't like this and you were happier back then. you're an independent, strong girl, and you better live your life that way. you have to ALWAYS remember that you come here to study and to be a successful academia, so you better stick to that thought and push everything unimportant aside. 

fourth, try not to be too naive, will you? life is not all cotton candy and princess' castles and fairy tales. unless they show you that they're really serious and they really mention it in front of your face, keep all your feelings aside. always remember that those who don't tell how they feel towards you, no matter how much you start to go pitter-patter and have butterflies or even dinosaurs in your tummy, only think of you as friends, so you better DON'T (i write it in all caps okay, so you better pay extra attention on this because i don't want to cry over useless guys in the future!) start to have feelings on them. try to keep telling yourself that you're just friends, because those who want to be more than that and don't want to lose you will tell you straightaway without being a coward.

fifth, you still want to convert to PhD don't you? so you better work that ass off and squeeze all your brain juice because it won't be easy, young girl!

sixth, try to love yourself more, because who'll do if you won't? :)

seventh, try to smile even more (but avoid that goofy grin because you'll look stupid, trust me)

eighth, noooo i'm not telling you to dress more femininely or something, but try to collect more shirts (plaid ones look nice on you!) instead of tshirts. and you better think of something about your hair, although i know it's such an endless problem :P and you better buy at least a pair of girly sandal and nooo they don't need to have heels.

ninth, yes you're an introvert and you're an awkward turtle and you don't want to get out of your comfort zone whatsoever, but it won't hurt to open up yourself for a little bit more, right? and always remember that you don't have to change! just be yourself and let them decide by themselves whether they want to stay or to leave. it's all up to their decision, but it doesn't mean that them leaving you will let you down. you have some good things in you, remember that! and people who appreciate that will come to you sooner or later :)

last but not least, MOVE ON. i know that your progress gets better and i really hope that in the future you already get over him completely because, seriously, he's not worth it and you deserve much much MUCH better person than him :)

i'm sorry for being too harsh on you but, well, it's for our better future right? so you better listen (or read? teehee) to everything that i said and do it in real life! 


Love you, 
Present Me



ps: i think i need to get a copy of this in my bb or something so that i can always read and get reminded of these things that i wrote, don't you think so? :)

the much awaited penang trip!

heyyaaaaa :D

first of all, i would like to say sorry from the deepest bottom of my heart for taking so long to post the pictures of my penang journey here. mianhae... m(_ _)m

i'm going to share the story first, then the pictures later :)


our journey started on november 15, at 10 pm. like what i told before in the last post, the journey to penang normally took around 5-6 hours. since that week was full of holidays, we were kinda afraid that we would be stuck in the traffic jam and arrive late at the National Poison Centre. since we visited this place by the name of UPM, of course we wanted to keep the image as good as possible, which was the reason why we departed early from serdang. we divided ourselves into two so-called teams, in which five of us were in the car and the rest were in the rented van.

luckily for us, the road was pretty clear so we did not face any traffic jam at all. however, since the car i was in was following the van and the van was speeding like crazy, of course the car had to speed up too, and we managed to arrive in penang in just like 3 hours something. yea, you can imagine how fast the vehicles were rite :P


since we arrived very early, we decided to drop by at Gurney Drive first and have some night ocean breeze there. it only made us become more sleepy though :P


after that, since time for subuh prayer was approaching, we decided to drop by at the nearest masjid to clean ourselves and have our subuh prayer there. we wanted to have some 'nasi kandar', which is one of penang's specialty, for breakfast at first, but considering that we consisted of multicultural students that might not be able to accept traditional foods (since some of them think that malaysian foods are too spicy), we had our breakfast at a mamak stall instead.


after that, we directly went to National Poison Centre which was located inside Universiti Sains Malaysia (USM), and one thing which made us proud was the staffs there said that we were the first group of visitors who were on time, since previous visitors always came late and made the staffs wait *grin*


sooooo we went around and heard for some explanations from them, mostly about poison that might be around us. they also explained to us about the way they made the determinations of these poisons using their own method, which is really cool.


we finished our visit at National Poison Centre after lunch time, and we decided to go on separate ways between the van and the car, since those in the car had to drop by at Batu Kurau (which is somewhere around Perak) like what i had told you all in the previous post. this was the first time for me to attend a village-style wedding and the foods were absolutely yummy! i was so in love with the fritters that i could not stop myself from munching them ^^ the lovely thing was these people made their own goodies, meaning that the cookies and cakes that they gave to us were all homemade, and of course they're all delicious too! ^^

soooooo, i guess that's all with the story. i'm pretty sure that you guys will enjoy seeing the pictures more :)

before departure

briefing before departure

And at the National Poison Centre....

Lastly, when we were at the so-called pre-wedding party ^^

that's all :)
see you when i see you! :)


ps: sorry for lack of pictures, since i don't know whether it is allowed to share the pictures at National Poison Centre for public consumption ^^

a newfound friendship :)

Hi! :D

I just went back from my trip to Penang! :D thank God everything went well, and it was a new experience for me to visit another part of Malaysia :) I'll tell the whole stories complete with the pictures once my friends already upload the pictures on facebook, deal? :D


I am daaaang tired since I just slept for approximately 2 hours during the past 32 hours, but I am sooo excited to write this post and this can't wait until tomorrow (to the limit that I am currently typing this on my bb because I am too tired to turn my laptop on :P). In this post, I am going to tell the story about the journey itself, especially the one when we were back from Penang.


We rented one van that may occupy up to 15 people including the driver, but since there were 16 of us joining the trip, one of us (let's say that her name is A :D) brought her car, together with her brother (let's call him B :P) as spare transportation. This was the first time for us to meet B. Besides me in that car, there were also C (male) and D (female), meaning that there were five of us in the car. C is our classmate, but we are not that close, while D has been a close friend of mine since undergraduate years.


We departed from UPM at 11 pm on thursday night since we wanted to arrive at National Poison Centre early. The journey itself took only approximately 4 hours (since both the van and B were speeding like they were in Fast and Furious movie :P). During the journey, D and I were the ones who kept on talking since we wanted to keep B awake (by being noisy, kekeke~ :P) and concentrated on the road. However, B did not talk much this time, and just occasionally commented on our remarks.


However, it was a completely different story when we went back from Penang on friday afternoon. C started the conversation with B, and we found out that B is pretty much a talkative (and a bit 4D XD~) person after having a good nap. Since they were the same age (22 y.o.), it was easy for them to get along.
We decided to separate ways from the van because A needed to drop by at her relative's house in Perak (which is located around our way back to UPM from Penang) since the relative is getting married this Sunday. That was the first time for A and B to come to their relative's house, and we kept getting lost during our journey to Perak (to the limit that we trusted B's-not-so-trustable intuition instead of GPS XD~). However, we kept on laughing and singing and trying to guess some roads while munching on loads of potato chips that we had in the car instead of getting stressed, so I guess this is the first time I was having fun when I was lost in my way :D


When we were back from Perak to UPM, the story began. I did not really remember how it was started, but I think it was when we commented on C's all-mellow-yellow song choice (since it was currently C's playlist playing in the car). All of sudden, he told us the story of his bitter love life.

Basically, C was in a relationship with a girl for 3 years. He was really in love with this girl, but suddenly she asked to break up. When C asked why, she just stated that she didn't find him compatible with her (which is, helloooooo, what did you do for the past three years until you only found it out just now??). Eventhough it was hard for him, he just did what the girl wanted and they broke up. Surprisingly, the girl wanted him back around one week after they broke up, but he could not accept her back at that time since he thought that she was just playing around with him. Buuuut, one month later, he felt like he couldn't hold his feeling anymore because he missed her so much, so he called her and asked her to meet up....
... only to find out that she's already with someone new :(
Of course, he was really broken at that time. Three years is no joke man, they even already met each other's families. However, he was also thankful because later on, he found out that when he was in a relationship with her, she had cheated on him. Twice. At the end, he told us that he already moved on, and he was thankful that God had shown earlier to him that she's not the right one for him.


Then, we moved on to A's story. A is currently doing her PhD, and she is in a relationship with someone three years younger than her. The thing is, this guy has already settled down with his bachelor, and he asked A to get married with him next year. He keeps asking her to marry him like ASAP, and it's getting on A's nerves. She just started her PhD and everything has not been settled yet. She still needs to confirm on her methods, finish all her classes, and other suffocating stuff to do. Getting married ASAP is definitely not a priority for her right now. What makes her sad is it seems like her boyfriend does not understand why she needs to continue to PhD since he already settles down with his bachelor degree, and she starts to feel like her boyfriend does not support her. She was like stressed all our way back to UPM and asked us to play rock songs for her. We could not do anything much for her, but at least we sang along with her to the top of our lungs and she kept on laughing with us since our voice combination was, well.... a bit funny if I should say :P


Next, D told her story. Back then, before she is in a relationship with her boyfriend now, she was close with this one guy. They were like so close that people around them already think that they are in a relationship. However, one day, they suddenly drifted apart without her knowing the reason why *ahem, why does the story sound familiar? :D*. He kept on avoiding her to the limit that she was tired to keep asking what is wrong with him or her that time, and she just decided that she won't mess with his life anymore eventhough she still felt something for him.
Two years later, she found out the truth from her other friend that actually that guy liked her at that time, just like how she felt for him. Buuuuut, he found out that his bestfriend liked D too, so he decided to give up his feelings at that time and 'hand D over' to his bestfriend. This fact drove D mad because she felt like she's just a thing that people can easily hand over. Well, it's understandable since she has feelings too. It doesn't mean that she will accept the bestfriend anyway eventhough that guy already hand her over to him because she did not have any feeling for the bestfriend. At the end, none of them ended up with her, and she is happy now with his current boyfriend. She admitted that she did not feel right during those two years before she found out the truth because she still had feelings for him and she kept asking herself 'what went wrong?', so basically she said to us (particularly to me :P) to settle every unanswered questions in our heads and stop making assumptions because the truth may be far from what we think of.


From all the stories that night, the saddest love story came from B. Two years ago, he lost his girlfriend of 5 years. In an accident. And the accident happened in Gurney Drive, Penang. And the first place that we dropped by when we were arrived at Penang was, you've guessed it, Gurney Drive. Yes, somehow I feel like this might be one of the reasons why he was quiet all the way to Penang, but all-talkative when we were back from Penang. He got the hardest process of moving on. He cried himself to sleep, and sometimes he woke up in the middle of the night because of nightmares about her. They had been a couple since middle school and he already thought that she was the one for him, so it was really hard for him to let her go. At the end, he finally came to terms that he would not be able to forget her completely, even if he's with someone new. The memories will always be there, eventhough the feelings may not. He said to us not to force ourselves to move on, because it is a process. Forcing ourselves to move on will only make us suffer. It is okay to cry, it is okay to think of the person sometimes, it is okay to have a dream about that person, but don't let it get ourselves down. Keep busy, do new things, make new memories. Well, it works for him. He is now in a relationship with a Malaysian who's currently residing in Canada for her bachelor degree, and he plans to propose her when she is back in Malaysia :)


It was kind of surprising to me that in the span of 32 hours being together, we become the best of friends all of sudden. It felt like something 'clicked' that night when we told our stories one by one. I feel like they can be the friends that I am gonna be with both when I want to have fun together and when I need a shoulder to lean on. All of us had our fun when we joked and sang our hearts out, but we also tried our best to give advices and comforting words when any of us put our hearts out during the heart-to-heart session. It feels like we are able to trust each other in only 32 hours. We even made a plan to have another road trip together, or at least a hanging out session at any coffee shop during our free time, and we ensure that B joins us too although he's not from UPM.


Well, we find friendship in unexpected ways, right? :)


I will come back soon with new post full of pictures and story during our trip to Penang. Sooooo, see you around! :)



Ps: Did I tell my story too? Yes, of course, and they gave me the best advices :)

fifty shades of me :P

see, i fulfilled my promise. it's just one day and i'm back with a new post *grin*

it's almost 4 am and i just woke up from my not-so-deep slumber (since i woke up a few times) because i am about to disrupt my biological clock. and why do i have to do so?

because my classmates and i are going on a road trip to penang tomorrow night (teeheeee~ i love road trips! :D). i guess i need to stay awake for the whole journey because i don't wanna close my eyeeeeees i don't wanna fall asleeeeep *ahem. sorry :P* well, we already rented one big van that may occupy all of us + the driver, but i prefer to join one of my classmates' ride since, well, that's what road trip is all about, right? :D besides, it's much better for me to be in the same ride with fun people because the trip to penang will gonna be a pretty long journey (for approximately 5 hours. and it is not inclusive with the traffic jam considering that this is gonna be a kinda long weekend and the road will be oh-packed-so-much). so pleaaaaaase pray for me so that everything will go smoothly and safely :)


anywaaaaayyyyy


i need to stay awake during these times, maybe until around 10 am or something, and this one idea suddenly popped in my head.


why don't i write 50 facts about me??


i knooooooow this is very narcisstic of me to do so (and i am warning you now that the facts i am gonna write will probably be totally useless. don't tell me that i haven't warned you :P), but please bear with me, okay okay? *grin*

1. i love onion rings.
2. my body weight is always back to the same number for the past 3 years, no matter how much i eat or how much i starve.
3. i mostly sleep in fetus position.
4. i am pretty much a 'readable' person, because my expression always shows what i feel.
5. i am currently in love with the scent of azure breeze from marks & spencer and green tea.
6. blue has been and forever will always be my favorite color.
7. i am getting more introvert these days.
8. i always replace tapioca pearls in bubble tea with pudding.
9. i can't ride a bike.
10. i have a playlist full of brokenhearted songs named 'broken' and i always listen to it before i fall asleep.
11. tumblr has always been my guilty pleasure.
12. i don't find facebook interesting anymore.
13. i hate fish, veggies, and fruits.
14. but i am TOTALLY in for canned sardines, bananas, and eggplants.
15. i really want to master rapping, because girl rappers always sound cool to me ^^
16. i like my sunny-side egg to have crispy, brown edge, but still-runny egg yolk (yessss, you have to fry it in LOADS of oil :P)
17. i am afraid of cats
18. but i have soft spot for kittens
19. i love coffee, but i can't stand the anxiety after T^T
20. i can't sleep before listening to music (unless i am really tired)
21. i concentrate and work better with music (yes, including labworks and exam preparations :P)
22. i always download videos in resolution of 360 px
23. the best reality shows for me will always be SHINee Hello Baby, Running Man, and Shinhwa Broadcast
24. the best tv series will always go to big bang theory (hail to the nerds! *grin*)
25. i don't use any head support while sleeping, and i hug the pillow instead
26. i love mountains better than beach for holidays
27. i am a pretty blunt person
28. i plan everything beforehand, and i hate it the most when things don't go like what i plan
29. i am not an adventurous person since i would like to stay in my comfort zone forever
30. yeah i gotta admit that i have low self-esteem
31. i am allergic to dust and cold weather (to the limit that i had to wake up in the middle of the night when the temperature reached 17 degree C and i couldn't breathe because my nose was totally blocked, so i had to drink something hot. and there i was, sitting in the kitchen, waiting for my water to boil in the kettle, while trying my best to breathe through my mouth :P)
32. my favorite number is 8, because it is a symbol of infinity (and it is my birthdate too :D)
33. i really want to learn korean and japanese
34. after reading sons of the sun, barcelona is the place that i want to visit at the moment ^^
35. i am a sucker for plushies
36. my favorite lipbalm flavor would be Etude House Be Happy Ladybug (peach(-like??) flavored)
37. my ideal date would be sitting in a coffeeshop and chit-chatting for hours, or stargazing at a rooftop
38. i love sitting down at the furthest, most secluded corner in my library, connecting to the hotspot while munching my snacks (psssst :P)
39. i love karaoke
40. my forever favorite cartoon characters would always be dumbo, doraemon, and pikachu
41. i don't like parties, basically any formal occasions (i even celebrated my sweet seventeen by renting a mini-theatre for 30 ppl instead of having a party :P)
42. my favorite animal is elephant
43. i become a noob when it comes to philosophical, poem-related things
44. i hate politics
45. i can cook alfredo pasta (my forever favorite pasta), totally from scratch (i mean no instant sauce), and so far my sister loves it :P
46. i love baking, especially brownies
47. my favorite housechore is cleaning the bathroom (my housemates know about this so well :P)
48. i love it even better when people say i am 'cool' instead of 'pretty', 'cute', or 'beautiful'
49. i have jinx with earphones, because they only can stay averagely one month with me (no matter how expensive or cheap they are), so i always have stocks :P
50. i don't like tea, but i love fruity-flavored teas, especially strawberry

trust me, this is the longest random-fact-post i have ever written :P


sooooooo till we meet again! adios amigos! :)