oh and i love the pictures below the most :)
find more of them here
oh and if you have done enough 'research' on them, please let know which one pon and which one zi is. thank you :)
pon and zi! love love love
have you ever heard of them? ok then, let me introduce you to these two simple but unique creatures which are creepy but cute at the same time :D. well, i dont know which one pon and which one zi is, but what i got so far is the yellow one is a guy :P after you look at the pictures below, am sure you're gonna love them :D
oh and i love the pictures below the most :)
find more of them here
oh and if you have done enough 'research' on them, please let know which one pon and which one zi is. thank you :)
oh and i love the pictures below the most :)
find more of them here
oh and if you have done enough 'research' on them, please let know which one pon and which one zi is. thank you :)
one night in KLIA :D
hahaha, yea i know maybe you have a thought of "was she too excited to go home or what?" well, yes i was really excited to go home, but i wasnt that excited until i decided to stay up in the airport alone, all by myself. my cousin usually takes me to the airport everytime am going home, but unfortunately she was going back to jakarta at that time, while her husband was going back to johor, his hometown, therefore i had to go to the airport alone. actually i could go there by cab, but my flight was in the morning (at 9.00 am, 17th november 2009) and i had to be in the airport at 7.00 am, which means i had to be ready at 6.00 am since it takes around 1 hour to go to the airport from my house. to be honest, since am not really used to going anywhere by cab, i was quite afraid to go to the airport by cab early in the morning, and most of my friends didnt suggest me to do so. yes, that's the story why i ended up staying up in the airport for the whole night, hehehe.
i arrived in the airport at around 9.00pm and i directly went to KFC for dinner. unfortunately am a kinda person who's fast in eating, so i didnt spend too much time at KFC. then i sat on one seat available near viewing area and turned on my laptop to get online. so sorry to say, the internet in KLIA is veeeerrrryyyyy slow and i was quite pissed since i couldnt access facebook properly, so i just relied on my twitter (spamming my followers' timeline, hehehe, sorry guys) to keep myself awake. it was quite disappointing because some of my friends wanted to accompany me and make sure am awake by chatting in facebook chatroom. another problem came when i realized that i almost ran out of battery and i didnt find any plug there, so i decided to turn off my laptop and sit there for a while. i listened to mp3 and drank this coffee
actually i prepared two cans of coffee from two different brands, but i drank this one first because i thought this one was milder than the other one and it was around 11 pm so i wasnt that sleepy at that time. after i finished the coffee, i went around KLIA to find plug in cafes and restaurants around there, especially the ones which open for 24 hours. luckily, i found two hidden plugs at McD behind their ice cream booth that i could use for charging my laptop and my cellphone after asking one of the cashiers there. these plugs definitely saved me from my boredom, hahaha. i also bought one glass of hot milo and one piece of hot apple pie, since it was qute freezing there and i needed something to keep myself warm.
soo i continued browsing and spamming my followers' timeline in twitter. i also accessed facebook but i had to refresh the page many times in order to make it work properly.
theeen suddenly i couldnt connect to the internet again. i asked one of McD workers in the ice cream booth and she said everyone only has two-hour quota for connecting to the internet in one day and it will only be renewed on the next day. dammit. and it was still 1 am. i still have 4 hours before check-in time. thank God i still have some movies in my harddisk and i had my headphone with me so i decided to watch 17 Again, listen to some musics, and watch some music videos until around 4 am and i had to turn off my laptop because i wanted to pee, hahaha. after going back from the toilet, i sat on the seat near viewing area again because i didnt want to buy anything more from McD (since i already went out from McD, of course i have to buy something if i want to sit there, rite?) and it was already around 4 am which means i can check in in around 1 hour. i felt a bit sleepy, maybe because of the hot milo i drank before, then i opened the other can of coffee
i looked around and saw some people sleeping on the seats around me. some of these people, i think, were backpackers, while the others were, i think again, non-backpackers like me. it could be seen from their luggage, hehehe.
it was only me awake around there while some security guards were going around. it was quite weird being in the airport without a lot of people rushing and hurrying or families sending their relatives. i usually hear tears and laughters from every corner, and at that time i just felt.... silence everywhere. i guess am still not used to seeing KLIA this empty, teehee~
i also took a picture of me at around 4.30am, and i hadnt slept at all at that time. i didnt sleep at all for the whole night until before my flight, hehehe. do i look sleepy to you, blogwalkers? teehee~
and you know what, i found one coin-activated computer near the toilet, so i used it to update my status in twitter and facebook, hehehe. you may roll your eyes, but this is the first time for me using this kinda computer eventhough i had been in KLIA for several times. i used it for around several minutes, and i spent around 50cents, hahaha. sorry i forgot to take the pic, hehew.
around 5am, i checked in the counter and continued to the immigration section before waiting for my flight. stupidly, after i passed the immigration section, i felt my tummy rumbling and i realized that i hadnt had my breakfast yet. unfortunately, food sold after immigration section are expensive chocolates and of course i couldnt spend like RM 100 just for my breakfast rite, hahaha. thank God, eventhough my tummy was rumbling like crazy, my brain still worked properly and i remembered that i still had four packs of these crunchy biscuits in my backpack. yeay!
of course these biscuits were enough to save me from my hunger attack, hahaha. and luckily, i also found a lot of plugs in the waiting room so i could connect to the internet again (since its already the next day, it was around 7 am) and charged my cellphone again since i used it for listening to the music and it kinda ran out of battery. so i browsed the internet until around 8.30 am, just right before my flight.
yes, that's my story of spending one sleepless night in the airport. it was quite boring and i dont know what i will do if i dont have my laptop with me, but it was a good experience tho. :)
i arrived in the airport at around 9.00pm and i directly went to KFC for dinner. unfortunately am a kinda person who's fast in eating, so i didnt spend too much time at KFC. then i sat on one seat available near viewing area and turned on my laptop to get online. so sorry to say, the internet in KLIA is veeeerrrryyyyy slow and i was quite pissed since i couldnt access facebook properly, so i just relied on my twitter (spamming my followers' timeline, hehehe, sorry guys) to keep myself awake. it was quite disappointing because some of my friends wanted to accompany me and make sure am awake by chatting in facebook chatroom. another problem came when i realized that i almost ran out of battery and i didnt find any plug there, so i decided to turn off my laptop and sit there for a while. i listened to mp3 and drank this coffee
actually i prepared two cans of coffee from two different brands, but i drank this one first because i thought this one was milder than the other one and it was around 11 pm so i wasnt that sleepy at that time. after i finished the coffee, i went around KLIA to find plug in cafes and restaurants around there, especially the ones which open for 24 hours. luckily, i found two hidden plugs at McD behind their ice cream booth that i could use for charging my laptop and my cellphone after asking one of the cashiers there. these plugs definitely saved me from my boredom, hahaha. i also bought one glass of hot milo and one piece of hot apple pie, since it was qute freezing there and i needed something to keep myself warm.
soo i continued browsing and spamming my followers' timeline in twitter. i also accessed facebook but i had to refresh the page many times in order to make it work properly.
theeen suddenly i couldnt connect to the internet again. i asked one of McD workers in the ice cream booth and she said everyone only has two-hour quota for connecting to the internet in one day and it will only be renewed on the next day. dammit. and it was still 1 am. i still have 4 hours before check-in time. thank God i still have some movies in my harddisk and i had my headphone with me so i decided to watch 17 Again, listen to some musics, and watch some music videos until around 4 am and i had to turn off my laptop because i wanted to pee, hahaha. after going back from the toilet, i sat on the seat near viewing area again because i didnt want to buy anything more from McD (since i already went out from McD, of course i have to buy something if i want to sit there, rite?) and it was already around 4 am which means i can check in in around 1 hour. i felt a bit sleepy, maybe because of the hot milo i drank before, then i opened the other can of coffee
i looked around and saw some people sleeping on the seats around me. some of these people, i think, were backpackers, while the others were, i think again, non-backpackers like me. it could be seen from their luggage, hehehe.
it was only me awake around there while some security guards were going around. it was quite weird being in the airport without a lot of people rushing and hurrying or families sending their relatives. i usually hear tears and laughters from every corner, and at that time i just felt.... silence everywhere. i guess am still not used to seeing KLIA this empty, teehee~
i also took a picture of me at around 4.30am, and i hadnt slept at all at that time. i didnt sleep at all for the whole night until before my flight, hehehe. do i look sleepy to you, blogwalkers? teehee~
and you know what, i found one coin-activated computer near the toilet, so i used it to update my status in twitter and facebook, hehehe. you may roll your eyes, but this is the first time for me using this kinda computer eventhough i had been in KLIA for several times. i used it for around several minutes, and i spent around 50cents, hahaha. sorry i forgot to take the pic, hehew.
around 5am, i checked in the counter and continued to the immigration section before waiting for my flight. stupidly, after i passed the immigration section, i felt my tummy rumbling and i realized that i hadnt had my breakfast yet. unfortunately, food sold after immigration section are expensive chocolates and of course i couldnt spend like RM 100 just for my breakfast rite, hahaha. thank God, eventhough my tummy was rumbling like crazy, my brain still worked properly and i remembered that i still had four packs of these crunchy biscuits in my backpack. yeay!
of course these biscuits were enough to save me from my hunger attack, hahaha. and luckily, i also found a lot of plugs in the waiting room so i could connect to the internet again (since its already the next day, it was around 7 am) and charged my cellphone again since i used it for listening to the music and it kinda ran out of battery. so i browsed the internet until around 8.30 am, just right before my flight.
yes, that's my story of spending one sleepless night in the airport. it was quite boring and i dont know what i will do if i dont have my laptop with me, but it was a good experience tho. :)
v.a.c.a.t.i.o.n!!
firstly i wanna thank sri for planning such a great great GREAT vacation for all of us! hehehe~
well, last tuesday or 10th november 2009, the owner of this blog and her other 13 friends were having a whole day vacation. since am too lazy to write anything but too excited to tell you all about this vacation, i think putting these pictures and adding some explanations below each pic will be a great solution, teehee~
okaaayy soo we started the day by going to wetland putrajaya... and of course we did some water activities there *d'oh!*
afrah and i chose kayaking while the others picked boat rowing. yess, i knew that doing kayaking means that we have greater chance to get wet and also greater chance for the kayak to be upside-down, but i still wanted to do it because i found it more challenging, hehee~
i screamed many times while kayaking because we ALMOST got upside-down, and we were frustrated because the kayak kept turning around and around and it was hard to make it go straight, hahaha.
here come the water warriors! teehee~
this is the view of wetland, putrajaya... and some of my friends who were rowing ^^
kayaking with afrah ^^ for those who havent tried this one, YOU SHOULD TRY! this is challenging and fun at the same time, perfect for your adrenaline rush! :D
sooo after we finished one hour of our water activities, we went to alamanda putrajaya for lunch before going to.... bagan lalang beach! yesss ppl, we were going to the beach! hahaha, so excited. and it was like a dream comes true because actually i wanted to have a vacation to the beach with these guys, but i just didnt say it to them, teehee~
we reached the beach before sunset and the view of the sunset was just breathtaking! well, i'll just put the pics here, hehehe~
the view at around 5-6 pm after raining ^^
yess, we are the beach explorers, hahaha
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owyea, we had this high-school-musical-signature jump, hahaha~
gosh, how i love this scenery so damn much
me and my name on the sand :)
see the breathtaking sunset behind me?? isnt it just beautiful???
and we ended the day by having suppa-delicious seafood for dinner. we had grilled rayfish, calamari, 'pepahat', clams, crab, and many other kinds of seafood... and how much did we spend? only RM196 for 14 hungry people who were full after finishing all of these seafood. isnt it cheap??? i definitely love that place, hahaha.
goshh, the trip was just amazing! and i was quite sad because am not gonna meet these guys for around 8 months due to my industrial training at F&N Dairies during next semester... i will miss them all for sure, hehehe~
ps : i already finished all my final exams! jump for joy! hehehe~ and am gonna go back home on 17th of november until 27th of december. my current mood is happy, for sure, hehehe~
well, last tuesday or 10th november 2009, the owner of this blog and her other 13 friends were having a whole day vacation. since am too lazy to write anything but too excited to tell you all about this vacation, i think putting these pictures and adding some explanations below each pic will be a great solution, teehee~
okaaayy soo we started the day by going to wetland putrajaya... and of course we did some water activities there *d'oh!*
afrah and i chose kayaking while the others picked boat rowing. yess, i knew that doing kayaking means that we have greater chance to get wet and also greater chance for the kayak to be upside-down, but i still wanted to do it because i found it more challenging, hehee~
i screamed many times while kayaking because we ALMOST got upside-down, and we were frustrated because the kayak kept turning around and around and it was hard to make it go straight, hahaha.
here come the water warriors! teehee~
this is the view of wetland, putrajaya... and some of my friends who were rowing ^^
kayaking with afrah ^^ for those who havent tried this one, YOU SHOULD TRY! this is challenging and fun at the same time, perfect for your adrenaline rush! :D
sooo after we finished one hour of our water activities, we went to alamanda putrajaya for lunch before going to.... bagan lalang beach! yesss ppl, we were going to the beach! hahaha, so excited. and it was like a dream comes true because actually i wanted to have a vacation to the beach with these guys, but i just didnt say it to them, teehee~
we reached the beach before sunset and the view of the sunset was just breathtaking! well, i'll just put the pics here, hehehe~
the view at around 5-6 pm after raining ^^
yess, we are the beach explorers, hahaha
i DO love this picture! heart you all, girls! <3 data-blogger-escaped-span="span">
owyea, we had this high-school-musical-signature jump, hahaha~
gosh, how i love this scenery so damn much
me and my name on the sand :)
see the breathtaking sunset behind me?? isnt it just beautiful???
and we ended the day by having suppa-delicious seafood for dinner. we had grilled rayfish, calamari, 'pepahat', clams, crab, and many other kinds of seafood... and how much did we spend? only RM196 for 14 hungry people who were full after finishing all of these seafood. isnt it cheap??? i definitely love that place, hahaha.
goshh, the trip was just amazing! and i was quite sad because am not gonna meet these guys for around 8 months due to my industrial training at F&N Dairies during next semester... i will miss them all for sure, hehehe~
ps : i already finished all my final exams! jump for joy! hehehe~ and am gonna go back home on 17th of november until 27th of december. my current mood is happy, for sure, hehehe~
me and my heart, we got ISSUES
Gosh... i wish i knew this song earlier then it would be soundtrack of the moment at that time, hahaha
enjoy. this is a good song tho :) oh and please dont get bored if i keep posting videos, songs, or lyrics... these songs i posted really described what i felt and i cant help myself, hehehe~ it's one kinda un-boring replacement of my writings rite, i know that my writings could be very boring and confusing sometimes (or maybe all the time? teehee~)
THE SATURDAYS - ISSUES
Vanessa:
Oooh, yeah,
Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
Boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
But then you smile at me and it's alright,
With you there ain't any in between...
Every time that I walk out the door
I tell myself I can't take it no more
There's a part of me won't let you go
I keep saying yes when my minds' saying' no...
Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues.
Rochelle:
It's so hard; boy you leave me hangin' for so long
You empty out my love until it's all gone
You change the words but still it's the same song
I'm tired of the melody
Vanessa:
Change my number and throw out your clothes
But my feelings for you, it still show
I keep building a wall round my heart
But then I see you it all falls apart...
Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you (damn I wish)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide)
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues.
Una (and Mollie):
Why fight it, (why fight it)
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Truth is I think I like it
Confusion, illusions (confusion, illusions)
Still I don't know which way to go,
Vanessa:
Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
The Saturdays:
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (We got to work this thing out)
Damn I wish that I could resist you (I don't know)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide if I )
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (issues)
We got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (we got to which way to go)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (I don't know)
PS : i'm having my final exams rite now. wish me a big good luck would ya? ^^
PSS : selamat hari sumpah pemuda dan selamat hari blogger nasional for indonesians! keep blogging, youngsters! :D
PSSS: i start to forgive and forget ^^ my bestfriends were rite, time heals the pain. now i feel better, folks. hopefully it gets better with time :)
enjoy. this is a good song tho :) oh and please dont get bored if i keep posting videos, songs, or lyrics... these songs i posted really described what i felt and i cant help myself, hehehe~ it's one kinda un-boring replacement of my writings rite, i know that my writings could be very boring and confusing sometimes (or maybe all the time? teehee~)
THE SATURDAYS - ISSUES
Vanessa:
Oooh, yeah,
Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind,
Boy the way you do me is a damn crime,
But then you smile at me and it's alright,
With you there ain't any in between...
Every time that I walk out the door
I tell myself I can't take it no more
There's a part of me won't let you go
I keep saying yes when my minds' saying' no...
Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues
We got issues, issues, issues.
Rochelle:
It's so hard; boy you leave me hangin' for so long
You empty out my love until it's all gone
You change the words but still it's the same song
I'm tired of the melody
Vanessa:
Change my number and throw out your clothes
But my feelings for you, it still show
I keep building a wall round my heart
But then I see you it all falls apart...
Chorus:
Me and my heart we got issues (issues)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
Damn I wish that I could resist you (damn I wish)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide)
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues.
Una (and Mollie):
Why fight it, (why fight it)
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Truth is I think I like it
Confusion, illusions (confusion, illusions)
Still I don't know which way to go,
Vanessa:
Me and my heart we got issues
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you
The Saturdays:
Damn I wish that I could resist you
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you,
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (We got to work this thing out)
Damn I wish that I could resist you (I don't know)
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide if I )
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (issues)
We got issues, issues, issues.
We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)
We got issues, issues, issues
Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (we got to which way to go)
Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (I don't know)
PS : i'm having my final exams rite now. wish me a big good luck would ya? ^^
PSS : selamat hari sumpah pemuda dan selamat hari blogger nasional for indonesians! keep blogging, youngsters! :D
PSSS: i start to forgive and forget ^^ my bestfriends were rite, time heals the pain. now i feel better, folks. hopefully it gets better with time :)
es-ka-te ha-te
tumben2an yaa nulis gw dalam bahasa indonesia, hehehe. khusus buat post ini aja kok, abis itu ntar balik english lagi, soalnya khusus post ini lebih enak nulis dalam bahasa indonesia, lebih 'nyampe' aja maksudnya, meskipun yg baca mungkin ga ngerti, hehe. sorry for non-indonesian readers :P
well, oke. kalo mungkin buat yang ngikut, gw udah nulis di dua posts sebelumnya kalo gw lagi patah hati. yap, untuk kesekian kali, hahaha. dan ini yg terparah. such a shame :P
untuk kali ini, menurut gw patah hatinya agak beda. call me an extra-extrovert, tapi ga tahan juga kalo ga ditulis disini, hehehe.
mungkin buat beberapa temen2 gw yang ga begitu deket, mereka kaget kalo tau gw patah hati segini2nya, karena raut wajah dan klakuan gw masih sama aja kayak sebelom gw patah hati. well, gw emang selalu berusaha buat nunjukin kalo gw kuat, walopun sebenrnya engga, hehehe. padahal patah hati yg ini lebih parah dibanding patah hati gw yg disini (well, it was me 4 years ago. dont blame me for being so pathetic at that time, hahaha), tapi yaa efeknya tetep aja sama. jatoh2nya minder lagi. ngerasa not worth to be loved lagi, hahaha.
well, awalnya gw ga ada rasa sama sekali sama ni cowo. nahh, ini bedanya sama yg lain2 dan persamaannya sama yg waktu gw SMA dulu, sama2 awalnya ga ada rasa. nahh, karena lama2 ni cowo kayak suka nunjukin 'tanda2', gwnya lama2 jd GR *sumpah, i dont know what goes into me sampe berani bener nulis ni post. ntar kalo malu gw delete ah postnya, hahaha* yang terus makin lama makin gede dan gw mulai ngrasa kl gw cinta ama dia.
trusss setelah beberapa lama gw baru tau... kalo ni cowo udah punya cewe. hahaha anjrot kan. belom lagi pas akhir2nya gw niatan mau curhat ke sobat gw yg juga temen deketnya dia, tapi gw ga nyebut nama, ehh dasar emang mungkin kita sehati apa gimana, bisa aja dia nebak itu cowok sebenernya siapa, hahaha. tepat menembak sasaran pula. yaudahlah gw terpaksa ngaku kan ke dia, gw ceritain utuh semuanya ke dia, apa yg udah tu cowo lakuin sampe bikin gw jadi ketar ketir engga jelas (yang bisa dilihat di account twitter gw selama kira2 dua bulanan dari 7th august sampe sekitar saat2 ini lah, hehehe. ada banyak tweets nyelip yg ngegambarin perasaan gw. itupun juga kalo lo rajin buka2nya, hahaha)
and finally, i found out kalo itu cowo cuma BECANDA
oke, bukan maksudnya dia becanda sama perasaan gw, bukan. tapi emang begitulah gaya becanda dia. dia emang niatnya buat lucu2an aja, tapi karena emang dia belom pernah becanda kayak gini sebelumnya sama cewe, dan emang dasarnya gw ga begitu deket sama ni cowo jadi gw ga tau perangainya dia kayak apa, yaaa beginilah akhirnya, hehehe.
yaaaa, jujur gw susah ngedeskripsiin prasaan gw ke dia setelah gw tau yg sebenernya. gw masih ada sisa2 prasaan buat dia, itu emang jelas sulit ilangnya, gw tau. buat yg SMA dulu itu aja gw ilangnya ampe setaunan lebih, gw ga tau deh buat yg ini. kejadian ini aja udah ampir sebulan lalu and i still cant get over it, makanya gw nulis disini, kali2 aja bisa berkurang kan sakit atinya. sobat gw, yg gw curhatin itu, sempet nanya ke gw, apa gw jadi benci ke cowo ini setelah gw tau kalo dia cuma becanda. hmmm, gw sempet mikir dulu untuk ngejawabnya, errr sebenernya gw ga benci, cuma rasa marah, lebih tepatnya kecewa itu pasti ada. gw kecewa kenapa dia becanda kayak gitu ke gw, gw kecewa kenapa harus gw yang ngrasain kayak gini, dan mostly gw kecewa sama diri gw sendiri yang keGRan setengah mati dan jadi susah sendiri kayak gini (meskipun semua orang yg gw curhatin bilang kalo mereka pasti GR kalo diperlakukan hal yg sama kayak yg tu cowo lakuin ke gw).
tapi jujur, gw ngerasa gara2 feeling ini, gw jadi berubah. oke, memang sebelom ini bisa dibilang gw punya black and white life. i'm a nerd yang kerjaannya mantengin laptop, bolak balik kampus-rumah-kampus-rumah dan bisa dibilang serius banget soal pelajaran, tapi tetep gw itu orang yg happy-go-lucky, gw selalu berusaha untuk ceria tiap harinya dan semangat tiap kali bangun pagi dan jalan ke kampus. tapi gara2 perasaan ini, gw ngerasa emang ada yg hilang. gw jd lebih gloomy, lebih ga semangat, dan jadi.... aneh. yup, gw ngerasa aneh sama diri gw sendiri. misalnya, kayak sekarang dandanan gw balik ke preman lagi, kayak dandanan gw dua tahun lalu. gw balik lagi ke tshirt, jeans, sama sepatu kets. plus ngunyah permen karet ke sana sini. ga tau knapa, gw ngerasa dengan cara gw dress up kayak gini tuh gw mau nunjukin kalo gw bisa juga kuat, which means ya kayak preman. emang ga penting siy sebenrnya ahhaha.
FYI, dari waktu gw tau kl dia dah punya cewe sampe sekarang, gw ga bisa nangis, tapi ati gw udah sesek setengah mampus. kalo kata damara, emang gw harus nangis biar gw lebih lega, tapi gw udah nyoba segala cara tetep aja engga nangis. gw udah nonton proposal daisakusen yg bikin gw nangis bombay meskipun udah nonton beberapa kali, tetep ga nangis. gw udah denger heaven knows yang biasanya sukses bikin gw berurai air mata, masih ga nangis juga. bahkan denger graduation-nya vitamin c yang pasti berhasil bikin gw nangis parah aja masih ga mempan. tinggal ngiris bawang aja dah yg belom gw cobain, hahaha. alhasil sesak itu masih kerasa aja, sampe hari ini. dan gw masih berusaha menghilangkannya karena itu amat sangat tidak nyaman sekali *halah. semua orang jg tau kali.
yaah, pokoknya intinya gitu deh. emang ga jelas banget ya post gw kali ini, tapi ternyata bikin 'pngakuan' itu rada melegakan lho. moga2 time will heal the pain deh. amin. doakan ya readers, semoga post2 berikutnya gw udah dalam keadaan yg lebih ceria dan ga gloomy kayak yg sekarang ini :)
oya, sekalian gw mau taro disini tweet gw directly after i know kalo itu cowo sudah berpacar. ga tau knapa, gw suka aja sama tweet yg ini hehehe. call me pathetic :P
"to you: thanks for giving me colours in my life for the past one month. thanks for giving me butterflies everytime i see you. thanks for making me smile and cry. thanks for making me feel this way. thanks for everything. Am gonna miss you. And your smile :) oh, one more thing! i dont know her, but i know that she deserves having you. please dont break her heart like what you do to me :)"
- sep 10th from web
adios amigos! :)
ps: and my playlist till today still contains gabrielle - out of reach, gareth gates - walk on by, keith urban - you'll think of me, michelle branch - goodbye to you, samsons - luluh, s club 7 - never had a dream come true, a1 - i'll take the tears, and most importantly, rick price - heaven knows :P
well, oke. kalo mungkin buat yang ngikut, gw udah nulis di dua posts sebelumnya kalo gw lagi patah hati. yap, untuk kesekian kali, hahaha. dan ini yg terparah. such a shame :P
untuk kali ini, menurut gw patah hatinya agak beda. call me an extra-extrovert, tapi ga tahan juga kalo ga ditulis disini, hehehe.
mungkin buat beberapa temen2 gw yang ga begitu deket, mereka kaget kalo tau gw patah hati segini2nya, karena raut wajah dan klakuan gw masih sama aja kayak sebelom gw patah hati. well, gw emang selalu berusaha buat nunjukin kalo gw kuat, walopun sebenrnya engga, hehehe. padahal patah hati yg ini lebih parah dibanding patah hati gw yg disini (well, it was me 4 years ago. dont blame me for being so pathetic at that time, hahaha), tapi yaa efeknya tetep aja sama. jatoh2nya minder lagi. ngerasa not worth to be loved lagi, hahaha.
well, awalnya gw ga ada rasa sama sekali sama ni cowo. nahh, ini bedanya sama yg lain2 dan persamaannya sama yg waktu gw SMA dulu, sama2 awalnya ga ada rasa. nahh, karena lama2 ni cowo kayak suka nunjukin 'tanda2', gwnya lama2 jd GR *sumpah, i dont know what goes into me sampe berani bener nulis ni post. ntar kalo malu gw delete ah postnya, hahaha* yang terus makin lama makin gede dan gw mulai ngrasa kl gw cinta ama dia.
trusss setelah beberapa lama gw baru tau... kalo ni cowo udah punya cewe. hahaha anjrot kan. belom lagi pas akhir2nya gw niatan mau curhat ke sobat gw yg juga temen deketnya dia, tapi gw ga nyebut nama, ehh dasar emang mungkin kita sehati apa gimana, bisa aja dia nebak itu cowok sebenernya siapa, hahaha. tepat menembak sasaran pula. yaudahlah gw terpaksa ngaku kan ke dia, gw ceritain utuh semuanya ke dia, apa yg udah tu cowo lakuin sampe bikin gw jadi ketar ketir engga jelas (yang bisa dilihat di account twitter gw selama kira2 dua bulanan dari 7th august sampe sekitar saat2 ini lah, hehehe. ada banyak tweets nyelip yg ngegambarin perasaan gw. itupun juga kalo lo rajin buka2nya, hahaha)
and finally, i found out kalo itu cowo cuma BECANDA
oke, bukan maksudnya dia becanda sama perasaan gw, bukan. tapi emang begitulah gaya becanda dia. dia emang niatnya buat lucu2an aja, tapi karena emang dia belom pernah becanda kayak gini sebelumnya sama cewe, dan emang dasarnya gw ga begitu deket sama ni cowo jadi gw ga tau perangainya dia kayak apa, yaaa beginilah akhirnya, hehehe.
yaaaa, jujur gw susah ngedeskripsiin prasaan gw ke dia setelah gw tau yg sebenernya. gw masih ada sisa2 prasaan buat dia, itu emang jelas sulit ilangnya, gw tau. buat yg SMA dulu itu aja gw ilangnya ampe setaunan lebih, gw ga tau deh buat yg ini. kejadian ini aja udah ampir sebulan lalu and i still cant get over it, makanya gw nulis disini, kali2 aja bisa berkurang kan sakit atinya. sobat gw, yg gw curhatin itu, sempet nanya ke gw, apa gw jadi benci ke cowo ini setelah gw tau kalo dia cuma becanda. hmmm, gw sempet mikir dulu untuk ngejawabnya, errr sebenernya gw ga benci, cuma rasa marah, lebih tepatnya kecewa itu pasti ada. gw kecewa kenapa dia becanda kayak gitu ke gw, gw kecewa kenapa harus gw yang ngrasain kayak gini, dan mostly gw kecewa sama diri gw sendiri yang keGRan setengah mati dan jadi susah sendiri kayak gini (meskipun semua orang yg gw curhatin bilang kalo mereka pasti GR kalo diperlakukan hal yg sama kayak yg tu cowo lakuin ke gw).
tapi jujur, gw ngerasa gara2 feeling ini, gw jadi berubah. oke, memang sebelom ini bisa dibilang gw punya black and white life. i'm a nerd yang kerjaannya mantengin laptop, bolak balik kampus-rumah-kampus-rumah dan bisa dibilang serius banget soal pelajaran, tapi tetep gw itu orang yg happy-go-lucky, gw selalu berusaha untuk ceria tiap harinya dan semangat tiap kali bangun pagi dan jalan ke kampus. tapi gara2 perasaan ini, gw ngerasa emang ada yg hilang. gw jd lebih gloomy, lebih ga semangat, dan jadi.... aneh. yup, gw ngerasa aneh sama diri gw sendiri. misalnya, kayak sekarang dandanan gw balik ke preman lagi, kayak dandanan gw dua tahun lalu. gw balik lagi ke tshirt, jeans, sama sepatu kets. plus ngunyah permen karet ke sana sini. ga tau knapa, gw ngerasa dengan cara gw dress up kayak gini tuh gw mau nunjukin kalo gw bisa juga kuat, which means ya kayak preman. emang ga penting siy sebenrnya ahhaha.
FYI, dari waktu gw tau kl dia dah punya cewe sampe sekarang, gw ga bisa nangis, tapi ati gw udah sesek setengah mampus. kalo kata damara, emang gw harus nangis biar gw lebih lega, tapi gw udah nyoba segala cara tetep aja engga nangis. gw udah nonton proposal daisakusen yg bikin gw nangis bombay meskipun udah nonton beberapa kali, tetep ga nangis. gw udah denger heaven knows yang biasanya sukses bikin gw berurai air mata, masih ga nangis juga. bahkan denger graduation-nya vitamin c yang pasti berhasil bikin gw nangis parah aja masih ga mempan. tinggal ngiris bawang aja dah yg belom gw cobain, hahaha. alhasil sesak itu masih kerasa aja, sampe hari ini. dan gw masih berusaha menghilangkannya karena itu amat sangat tidak nyaman sekali *halah. semua orang jg tau kali.
yaah, pokoknya intinya gitu deh. emang ga jelas banget ya post gw kali ini, tapi ternyata bikin 'pngakuan' itu rada melegakan lho. moga2 time will heal the pain deh. amin. doakan ya readers, semoga post2 berikutnya gw udah dalam keadaan yg lebih ceria dan ga gloomy kayak yg sekarang ini :)
oya, sekalian gw mau taro disini tweet gw directly after i know kalo itu cowo sudah berpacar. ga tau knapa, gw suka aja sama tweet yg ini hehehe. call me pathetic :P
"to you: thanks for giving me colours in my life for the past one month. thanks for giving me butterflies everytime i see you. thanks for making me smile and cry. thanks for making me feel this way. thanks for everything. Am gonna miss you. And your smile :) oh, one more thing! i dont know her, but i know that she deserves having you. please dont break her heart like what you do to me :)"
- sep 10th from web
adios amigos! :)
ps: and my playlist till today still contains gabrielle - out of reach, gareth gates - walk on by, keith urban - you'll think of me, michelle branch - goodbye to you, samsons - luluh, s club 7 - never had a dream come true, a1 - i'll take the tears, and most importantly, rick price - heaven knows :P
a.n.s.w.e.r
well, this might be the shortest entry i have ever written, but this is the answer for the big question mark in my head and also the conclusion of my previous longer entries
and here it is...
"I need a person who really cares about me . who texts me after we went together . who texts me when he wakes up cause he wishes he woke up next to me . who waits till i close the door before he left . who hugs me tight before the night is over . second thought, i don't need it . i want it ."
taken from Ayu Rianna Amardhi's blog
and here it is...
"I need a person who really cares about me . who texts me after we went together . who texts me when he wakes up cause he wishes he woke up next to me . who waits till i close the door before he left . who hugs me tight before the night is over . second thought, i don't need it . i want it ."
taken from Ayu Rianna Amardhi's blog
soooo....
nowadays, i feel like there is always at least a song for me for everything i feel on that day. like this one below :
MICHELLE BRANCH - GOODBYE TO YOU
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
[Chorus]
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
[Chorus x2]
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
err, well, actually you can pass the 'three years' part since he and i havent started anything yet, hehehe.
sooo.... this is how the story ends. of course this is not a happy ending like in cinderella's story, but at least now i know that you are not the one for me. dont forget to send my regards to her :)
MICHELLE BRANCH - GOODBYE TO YOU
Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
[Chorus]
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
[Chorus x2]
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star
err, well, actually you can pass the 'three years' part since he and i havent started anything yet, hehehe.
sooo.... this is how the story ends. of course this is not a happy ending like in cinderella's story, but at least now i know that you are not the one for me. dont forget to send my regards to her :)
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