dumping my junk

have you ever felt this way...
when you have a feeling towards someone, but you cannot do anything with it
you cannot declare that feeling, you even cannot show just a little bit of it to that person. you cannot show that you care, you're happy when you see that person, and you miss him when he's not around. you miss him so much that you want to cry, but when he's around, you just keep avoiding him because you know you'll blush when you're around him and you don't want him to see that blush on your cheek
all you can do is just keeping your cool, try so hard to hide the feeling so that no one knows, while people can see that your eyes sparkle when you look into his eyes when he talks to you
and why are you doing that?
because you're not sure that he is feeling the same way too
because you feel that you're not good enough for him, because you dont think that you can be someone that he can be proud of or someone who is pretty enough to make him into you
because you're tired of feeling rejected when you showed your feeling to someone you like in the past
because you keep telling yourself that he doesn't have any feeling towards you, therefore you just keep avoiding him to prevent your feeling to grow



and finally you write this kind of post because you're tired of keeping all these stuff inside your head and your heart?

if you have ever felt this way
what did you do to that feeling??


*ok, i'm blabbering. maybe it's because i'm stressed. i had so many difficult tests this week, and addition of having this kinda feeling just made me wanna cry. i already faced this kinda uncertainty so many times, but i dont know why this is the only one that really blows my head and makes me feel like my heart is going to explode because i cannot hold it anymore.
well, i think i should clean my room and forget about it.


ps : and i still keep listening to colbie caillat - 'fallin for you' over and over. maybe i should listen to westlife - 'obvious' too. these songs were really made for ME!! :|

yo, this is my JAM!! :D

hahaha, i know it's late at night, i need to attend class at 8 tomorrow morning, and i'm gonna have a food microbiology test tomorrow evening, but i just caaaan't help not post this video! THIS is the song which is truly made for me! hahaha~ enjoy

click here to see the video, sorry embedding is disabled by request :( but the video is really worth to watch, the man in the video is just SOOO funny! :D

COLBIE CAILLAT - FALLIN' FOR YOU

Falling For You www.radiohitsdl.blogspot.com - Colbie Caillat www.radiohitsdl.blogspot.com

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don't know where to
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I'm fallin' for you

yes, it's true. i'm fallin' for you :)

celebrity lookalikes :)

have you ever experienced this kinda thing : you look at any celebrity, either on TV or in newspapers and magazines, and suddenly something 'pop' in your head, telling you that you have ever seen any other celebrity who looks exactly like him/her? well, this happened to me many times, and trust me, i suddenly felt curious enough to spend one whole day thinking who is any other celebrity who can finally make me feel "yes, that's it! that's the one who looks like her!" hehehe *hyperbolic mode : on
and here are some celebrities who are lookalikes, well, at least for me :)

1. jamie lynn spears & kristin cavallari



britney spears' sister and the hills chick. hmmm. somehow they are quite alike :)


2. katherine heigl and kylie minogue



the age gap between them may be quite far (10 years), but i never know that they can look nearly the same!


3. miley cyrus and rachael ray



well, maybe if you see them on TV, you will never think that they are lookalike. but look at this pic. arent they such twins? :D


4. ellen degeneres and owen wilson



two funny people, and it's funny to know that they are lookalike. well, i didnt think they are until i saw this pic though :))


5. will ferrell and chad from red hot chili peppers



i'm not familiar with RHCP, but looking at this pic, i cant deny that they might be brothers in the past :))


6. leighton meester and minka kelly



i dont know who minka kelly is, but it's quite surprising to know that there's someone who looks as cute as leighton meester :)


7. alicia keys and jessica alba



the same case as miley and rachael. when you look at them separately, jessica doesnt remind you of alicia at all. but after looking at this pic, hmmm i think they will remind me of one another :D


8. allison iraheta and kelly clarkson



both of them are from american idol, and randy jackson already said many times that allison reminded him of kelly from the way she sings. you forgot one thing randy, they look the same too :)


9. demi moore and courteney cox



which one is demi? which one is courteney?? i cant differentiate one from another, help!


10. russell crowe and benjamin mckenzie (ryan atwood from the oc)



they could be father and son! hehehe, anyone disagrees??


11. amy adams and isla fisher



i definitely agree with this! i even thought that it's isla fisher in night at the museum 2, not amy adams! FYI, amy adams is the one on the right pic :)


12. ryan phillipe and hayden christensen



and both of them are my favorite hotties, hehehe :)


13. keira knightley and natalie portman



this pair is the winner. they are definitely twins separated at birth!

do you have some thoughts of celebrity lookalikes too? share them with me, please! :)

cuteness!

hey peeps! this is just a quick update, because i just wanna show you this video below. anyway, i know this is toooooooo late for me to recognize that this TVC exists, but trust me, this is VERY CUTE! luuurve it! :)

UPM : CLOSED FOR QUARANTINE!!

around 3 months ago, KL Central Food Court...
I was eating one plate of blackpepper chicken chop fried rice (for only RM5! and it's delicious too, hehehe) with Mba Winda. we could watch TV from our table and we watched the world news at that time. The news was about the VERY FIRST case of swine flu in singapore. everyone was wearing mask on TV and i felt a little bit scared while watching that. "Do you think this kinda flu will reach malaysia, mba?" i asked. "Hmmm. i dunno. we better just be careful. eat nutritious food, make sure that you have good immunity." that's all she answered. i continued eating my fried rice while still thinking about what i will do if that frikkin flu already reaches malaysia.
just now, faculty of food science, UPM....
we were about to check the colonies of microorganisms that we prepared in petri dishes 7 days ago. it was just 2 pm, while suddenly our lecturer, Dr. Karim said, "attention, please! academic section just asked me to clear our faculty right now, but you all can come back here again at 3 pm for further announcement. thank you!" of course all of us were wondering at that time. the academic section asked us to clear the faculty? this must be a serious problem. all of us then gathered around Dr. Karim to ask him what the problem was, and he said this was related to H1N1 thingy. my friends and i then moved to laman mahasiswa to talk about this while waiting for the announcement. sara, whose dad is working in bendahari upm, said that there were already 400 suspects of H1N1 in UPM. imagine, 400 suspects in ONE university! this is frikkin serious, man. we were 100% sure that UPM would be closed for quarantine. and that's what we got at 3 pm. an announcement on the notice board telling us that UPM will be closed for quarantine started from 28 july to 4 august.
the flu just needs less than three months to spread itself from one country to another. 3 months ago, i didnt think that i would be THIS CLOSE to H1N1. at all. and to tell you the truth, i was a bit panic when my friend told me that there were about 400 suspects of H1N1 in UPM. i mean, at that time, i just felt like i'm lost in a jungle full of lions and tigers, alone without my family by my side (you dont need to tell me. i ALREADY know that i can be super hyperbolic sometimes :D) then i told my cousin who lived here and she asked me to move to her house rightaway for this whole week. she also asked her husband to pick me up at my house because i'm too afraid to go to her house by commuter. it's just too dangerous, too much virus inside the commuters, and we'll never know what kind of virus that is. then when we passed the bus stops around UPM, i saw crowds of people with their luggages and masks on their faces. i just felt like, oh Gosh, what happened to UPM? what's wrong with all these?
hopefully when we all come back on 4th, everything will be okay and back to normal. although i will see people wearing mask around, at least i can feel safe and think that everything will be okay.
please pray for me folks, okay? love ya guys, gonna tell you all the updates soon! 

top 10 holiday eating out places in jogjakarta : you MUST try them when you come over!!

besides my family and friends, another thing i miss so much about jogjakarta is the food. well, the food there might be still uncomparable to bandung (bandung is food heaven, d'oh), but living there for my whole life before i came here is enough to make me fall in love, or even addicted to the foods. and jogjanese nowadays become more creative therefore there will always be new eating out places to try with my friends and fam.
and here are 10 eating out places that you should visit when you come over - excluding GUDEG, because i'm not a big fan of gudeg, hehehe. but you should try it when you come to jogjakarta, because not trying gudeg means you havent come to jogjakarta, hehehe.


10. Bebek Goreng Haji Slamet
i'm not a big fan of fried duck, but the first time i tried Haji Slamet's, i directly fell in love with it. the taste is not salty, but more to savoury and sweety. the price is also standard, just like the price of fried duck sold at other eating out places. it is opened at 12 pm and usually sold out in around 4-5 hours, especially on weekends, that's why you better come fast to its outlets in Jalan Gejayan or Jalan Mangkubumi if you want to have your lunch there.

9. Sakuniko
have you ever tried suppa delicious pasta, like lasagna, fettucinni with meatballs, or spaghetti, with original italian spices, sold at a very unique modified VW combi - yes, that old volkswagen car! - and, most importantly, cheap???
well, find SMA Kolese Debritto and drop by. u can find this VW combi there after maghrib. btw, i luv the meatballs fettucinni and lasagna. suppa yummieee!


the modified vw combi


8. Dapur Solo
well, i'm sure many of you guys love satay. i'm definitely one of many ppl who love this food. the best chicken satay i've ever tasted is the one sold in front of my house, yes thank God i dont have to go so far to get it. but nowadays, i'm in love with beef satay and i have tried many eating out places which sell beef satay. the best beef satay for me, so far, is located in Plaza Ambarrukmo at a restaurant named Dapur Solo.


served in a bowl made of clay. unique!

the beef satay there is cooked in javanese way, therefore the satay taste sweetish and salty at the same time. well, just have a try!

7. Mi Ceker Bandung
i found this place acidentally when i passed Jetis road and i directly felt curious about how it looks like, since i hadnt ever seen noodles cooked with chicken feet before. actually, mi ceker looks like chicken noodles or mi ayam, but chicken feet are added to it as extra toppings.



and thank God, my curiousity was paid well because the taste is magnificent. the chicken feet were cooked well till soft and u can even taste the seasonings to its bones. perfecto!

6. Martabak Ufo
i'm sure some of you have tasted sweet martabak before. but have you tasted the one in small size with loads of toppings plus ice cream on top of it?



Yummmmm.... and dont get fooled with its small size. once you finish it, you'll directly feel that your stomach is full enough, therefore you better dont eat anything before coming to its outlet located in Jalan Pandega Marta, or you'll finish only half of it.

5. Nikkou Ramen
this is located in Pogung, and it might be hard for you guys to park your car (i came there by motorcycle). the place is also so small that you have to queue in order to be seated. but once you see the portion of the ramen (look at the picture below. yes, the bowl is that BIG), pay the very cheap price, and get the delicious taste, i can guarantee that you want to come over again. at least that's what happened to me and my friends, hehehe. my suggestion : try the curry ramen and seafood ramen. suppa yum!




4. Bakso Bakar Arema
everytime i come back to Indonesia, i HAVE to come to Bakso Bakar Arema, which is located in Sagan. if you havent tried grilled meatballs, then Bakso Bakar Arema must be your first trial. if you have tried any, then you must try this and i'm sure Bakso Bakar Arema will be the best you've ever tasted.



if you dont like grilled food, you still can try the meatballs soup containing the non-grilled meatballs. trust me, the soup also tastes superb!

3. Djejamuran
have you ever tried crispy-fried mushrooms with sweet and sour sauce, mushroom satay, mushroom meatballs soup, or even MUSHROOM RENDANG? well, then you should try all of them at Djejamuran, located in Jalan Magelang. the main ingredients of all the foods there are mushrooms, and i dont think that you will even recognize that it's mushroom if the name of the food is not mentioned in the menu, because for me, the taste and even the texture is like chicken. yum yum.

2. Kedai Sapi
some people love beef, while some love chicken. i love both of them, therefore i said OK when my mom asked me to go to Kedai Sapi to have our lunch there. when i arrived there, i felt like i wanted to order the whole menu. well, they sell beefsteak, lasagna, beef satay, oxtail soup... i cant resist all of them! thank God i came there several times therefore i could try all the foods listed in the menu, and all of them are delicious! if you are a beef lover too, just come to their outlet in Plaza Ambarrukmo.


and here is the top of the list...
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1. Martabak Gereja Kotabaru
this is the BEST martabak manis i've ever tasted. why? well, because the topping is overloaded and eventhough my dad bought me this martabak over and over during my holiday, i never get bored of it. i even miss it now! you dont believe me? well, you better try it then, or at least look at the picture below. yes, the thick layer in the middle is the chocolate and cheese topping. it is THAT thick :P





if you wanna ask me about the exact location of these eating out places, or anything about these places, just contact me through comment :)

ciaoo!

and these songs....

We can't go on pretending day by day
That someone, somewhere will soon make a change
We are all a part of God's great big family
And the truth, you know,
Love is all we need
- We Are The World



Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me
- Heal The World



I Never Felt So In Love Before
Promise Baby, You'll Love Me
Forevermore
- The Way You Make Me Feel



So I've Learned That Love's Not Possession
And I've Learned That Love Won't Wait
Now I've Learned That Love Needs Expression
But I Learned Too Late
- She's Out Of My Life



But they say the skys the limit
And to me thats really true
And my friends you have seen nothin
Just wait til I get through
- Bad



If You're Thinkin' Of
Being My Brother
It Don't Matter If You're
Black Or White
- Black or White


I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin
- You Are Not Alone



You're sellin' out souls but
I care about mine
I've got to get stronger
And I won't give up the fight
- Scream


Yes, those are some quotes taken from the songs by The King Of Pop, MICHAEL JACKSON. Everyone in this world knows that he's died yesterday because of heart attack. Well, quite sad knowing he's died when he's planning for a comeback tour this july.
Those quotes above are my favorite quotes taken from his songs. Actually, from all of his songs, Heal The World and Black or White are the ones which can really touch my heart *cieeehh
Everytime i hear Heal The World playing, i always feel something tingling in my heart. Then i realize that there are still a lot of people in this world who need our help who are capable to help them. While for Black or White, it's actually the first song of his that i knew for the first time, and i immediately liked it rightaway, well, i actually like it until now. and thank God adam lambert sang his version very well on american idol Michael Jackson night.
everyone was in shock yesterday. even until now. honestly, i still cant believe he's gone. i'm not a fan of him, but in some part of my life, i grew up listening to his songs, since my dad loves his songs eventho he's not a big fan of him either. i'm sure a part of everyone was missing when they knew he's gone. all of his music videos are top ranked as the most viewed ones until today started from yesterday in youtube. top rated lyrics in some websites are also his. his songs are top-downloaded too. all of his records are now sold out. his videos and news about his death are played over and over in any TV channels. everyone wants to remember him, and i wanna be one of them.
Rest in peace, Michael. Keep moonwalking there in heaven :)